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Posted by Deneb on March 2, 2006, at 23:28:42
I don't want to ever get blocked again.
I think I'm having a PTSD reaction to being blocked right now.
Dr. Bob, blocks are too long. I think blocks should be at most 2 weeks long.
I'm scared. I'm seriously terrified at the prospect of getting blocked.
Dr. Bob, I think this is an adverse reaction. Please take note of it.
What if we meet in real life and then something reminds me of being blocked and I start crying? Would that make people uncomfortable?
My hurts are *real*. I hurt in REAL LIFE. Blocks hurt me in REAL life.
Dr. Bob, knowing my next block is going to be 8 weeks is making me hopeless. I think you should reduce block lengths if the person goes without a PCB for several months.
I *need* some hope Dr. Bob. Just a little.
I'm not going to survive my next block, I just know it.
I'm sad. i don't want to die.
Dr. Bob, this is not supposed to happen to me. I'm having an adverse reaction. Please take note of it.
Deneb
Posted by sleepygirl on March 2, 2006, at 23:34:14
In reply to Please help me to never get blocked again, posted by Deneb on March 2, 2006, at 23:28:42
Deneb...
only YOU have the ability to take care of yourself
Many, many people here care about you.
Many conversations have centered on this topic.
Posted by Deneb on March 2, 2006, at 23:56:42
In reply to Re: Please help me to never get blocked again » Deneb, posted by sleepygirl on March 2, 2006, at 23:34:14
I know that only I can take care of myself. I just need people to remind me when I'm starting to lose control.
I think JenStar did a wonderful thing by telling me how she was worried about me losing control again. That's how people can help me.
Remind me that i'm losing perspective or control. Divert my attention to something else. I think that works a lot of the time.
Remind me about the rules. Say, be careful you don't make light of death Deneb.
Stuff like that.
Posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:01:20
In reply to Re: Please help me to never get blocked again, posted by Deneb on March 2, 2006, at 23:56:42
You really can't rely on others to do that for you. Not only can others not take that kind of responsibility for your well being, but your well being should be too important to you to leave to the chance of who might be online and what they may feel up to doing.
Perhaps you could make a tape for yourself, or put it on your monitor.
Posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:11:43
In reply to Re: Please help me to never get blocked again » Deneb, posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:01:20
About letting you know that you have permission to call the cops on me if I get blocked again. I don't want to put you in that position.
No one has responsibility for my life except me.
I'm gonna leave it up to the Fates.
Deneb
Posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:15:47
In reply to Sorry GG, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:11:43
That's one choice.
Taking responsibility for yourself is another. Why don't you call your pdoc and ask her for ways to help you be responsible for yourself tonight.
Posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:16:59
In reply to Sorry GG, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:11:43
Or even ask here for suggestions on how to help you be responsible for yourself.
I offered two. Can anyone think of any more?
Posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:19:44
In reply to Sorry GG, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:11:43
I'm going back to my ideal Dr. Bob.
That makes me feel better.
I'm not going to think of the flawed Dr. Bob anymore. I'm going back to the caring and funny Dr. Bob, true or not.
Going back to my state of suspended disbelief. To heck with my critical faculties.
Deneb...going back to La La Land
Posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:34:13
In reply to Re: Sorry GG, posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:16:59
> Or even ask here for suggestions on how to help you be responsible for yourself.
>
> I offered two. Can anyone think of any more?Maybe I can make a contract....like if I starting thinking of death again I have to do something....like follow a list of things to do...
Step 1: Distract myself with a funny website or something, if that doesn't work...
Step 2: Go for a 30 min walk, if that doesn't work...
Step 3: Call the crises centre, if that doesn't work...
Step 4: Sleep it off and repeat the list the next day?
Other ways....hmmmm...
OK, if I do something horrible like buy certain unspeakable things, instead of posting about it, I should:
• maybe call the crisis centre and tell them about what I bought? (and hope to God they don't bring the cops to my door?)
Deneb
Posted by Dinah on March 3, 2006, at 0:45:21
In reply to Ways to take responsibility » Dinah, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:34:13
I'm glad you're thinking about it, Deneb. I thought your previous post was also a good choice for you. I used to use the taking a walk choice when I was suffering postpartum depression.
I would hope your choices wouldn't include buying unspeakable things, but certainly in that situation you should contact a crisis center or someone else in real life, where they have a better chance of helping you than anyone on the internet would. There's only so much we can do.
Posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 10:33:23
In reply to I'm tired of feeling bad, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 0:19:44
> I'm going back to my ideal Dr. Bob.
>
> That makes me feel better.
>
> I'm not going to think of the flawed Dr. Bob anymore. I'm going back to the caring and funny Dr. Bob, true or not.
>
> Going back to my state of suspended disbelief. To heck with my critical faculties.
>
> Deneb...going back to La La Land
>Sorry about that Dr. Bob. I really think you are good again. I just felt bad for 5, but I know you didn't mean to hurt 5. Perhaps you could apologize for hurting 5 and tell 5 that you didn't mean to hurt 5.
(((((Dr. Bob)))))
Deneb
Posted by muffled on March 3, 2006, at 11:23:16
In reply to Re: I'm tired of feeling bad, posted by Deneb on March 3, 2006, at 10:33:23
Hey Deneb, you a sweetie. I don't think there's nothing wrong w/you liking Bob. So longs its not hurting noone.
What the hell.
Life is full of sh*t and badness so you may as well enjoy the good stuff if its not harmful.
Posted by Tanzanite on March 3, 2006, at 13:15:39
In reply to Re: Please help me to never get blocked again » Deneb, posted by sleepygirl on March 2, 2006, at 23:34:14
HI Deneb, I don't have any grand advice. I think you should continue to find things if you can that help you to feel calm and happy. If whatever those things are are harmless, then I say go for it. Unfortunately, there is only so much that folks on the internet can do. Do you have anyone to turn to where you are? I just recently evaluated that I don't have much of a support system and hopefully will be able to build one. I don't know you and you don't know me and I am pretty new again to this board, but you seem like a really nice person with a very big heart. I think you are creative and if you could take that creativity and put your energies into that it would be of great help too and I bet you might come up with some amazing things. So I guess the other idea I can give you is find something that you enjoy doing and put your creative being into that if you are feeling down. So long as you make sure to take care of you in the process. Peace and (((Deneb)))
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