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Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:27:49
You see my dilemna is that I am not sure she will think it is a good idea. In the past, not so distant either, I asked for a recommendation of a p-doc and she discouraged me saying she could managed my treatment by herself and I didn't need one. She can't write meds since she is LMHC. My neuro has been handling my meds but I think at this point I need stuff she wont feel comfortable prescribing and to tell you the truth I don't feel comfortable going into the whole "I've got parts of myself that won't play nice thing". Especially when I am not sure a neurologist will see it. I am not saying a neuro can or can't I am just not sure mine will and I am comfortable with telling her or rather putting myself out there for her to say I am not comfortable with that and then I will be devastated. So it would be better for all for me to just see a p-doc at this point. I am very hestitate to to say all of this. I am not sure I can to her. She told me the last time that God would send my memories to me when I was ready and I almost lost it. Not that I am not a believer but not in therapy I don't want him there right now. I am not ready for that. And I believe I need to explore more of my memories to heal. It bothered my inside parts as well as we argued all the way home and have been upside down since. And now 3 hours before therapy am a mess. Actually when I called the p-doc I was crying and the message I left was crying and he called me back immediately. I was crying when I asked the phone. We talked about 15 minutes. I am better just having an appt. although he did almost pass me along not sure why he changed his mind.
Anyway, I digress, so how many out there think I should tell her about him and who doesnt. This is provided I can. I usually clam up and hide when faced with something I don't want to do. Unless someone else comes out and tells her in an unkind way. I would not do this on purpose since I can't just do that on command.
Hope I am making sense. my emotions are all over the place today. thanks for any insight anyone has. I will be grateful. rk
Posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 15:03:13
In reply to Therapist-do I tell her of my p-doc appt., posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:27:49
Hi Rsk,
Well, you can try to look at this way: we, each of us, are responsible for taking care of our health, mental and physical.
You going to see a pdoc is another step you are taking in trying to improve your mental health. I don't see how she can argue about going to see a pdoc when you clearly have a psychiatric mood disorder and want to reassure yourself you are doing all you can to help yourself get better.
If you are uncomfortable telling her, then don't.You don't need to get into an argument or meet resistance right now when you are trying so hard to get yourself help. Maybe wait until you actually see the pdoc and see what he says and you can judge better after speaking to him on your own whether your T is right about discouraging you or not.
Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 15:08:33
In reply to Re: Therapist-do I tell her of my p-doc appt. » rskontos, posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 15:03:13
Thank you lovelorn, that is good thinking. I don't need an argument right now, you are so right.. Deep down I know there is more to it and just trying the treatment approaches isn't working when the internal screaming is still going on. Thanks
rk
Posted by seldomseen on December 20, 2007, at 17:41:56
In reply to Therapist-do I tell her of my p-doc appt., posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:27:49
I'm with lovelorn, I definitely wouldn't go in there and just blurt it out, but if it comes up, then I would be honest.
I think you are smart to seek the advice of a psychiatrists on medications.
Posted by Dinah on December 20, 2007, at 18:00:14
In reply to Therapist-do I tell her of my p-doc appt., posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 14:27:49
In general I usually think honesty is best. But with medications, it's even more important I think. My therapist has been the one, on many occasions, who has connected changes in my mood with medication changes. Medication changes are one of the few things he actually writes down.
I'm sorry she doesn't handle the news better. I'm not sure why she objects, since she can't prescribe. Pdocs in general don't at all do the same thing therapists do.
Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 19:59:30
In reply to Re: Therapist-do I tell her of my p-doc appt. » rskontos, posted by seldomseen on December 20, 2007, at 17:41:56
Hey guys....I just got back and I didn't tell her mainly because I was switching all over the place and couldn't first I was one driving over there and she was the strong one that was going to take care of everything and she has been MIA for along time, and she was tired of the crying thing that i had been doing and really raked me over the coals for that and was going to take care of everything but the minute I walk in the church she said on no its a church I don't like churches and I felt her leave. the voices started chattering so badly I closed my eyes and I felt so disconnected from my body so I invited whomever wanted out to come out and all of a sudden I started crying I mean boohoo crying and that is when my therapist was ready for me. I went into her office and she said hi I couldn't speak a word i just sat and cried and she just let me. She said just take your time. She said let your pain out. I said it's not mine. She said let them get it out. And I cried for a while. When I finally stopped. I told her what happened. I told her about the switching during the week. the fight with my husband over my son and how I think two or three of them banded together to fight with my husband for my son. I didn't tell her about the dangerous one coming out cause nothing really happened b ad that time. She was glad the littleone came out and just cried. So I was too wringed out to tell her about p-doc after that. We just talked some after that. Mainly about husband and issues. But she thought it was great that we banded together to fight H since it was a productive one and it was good to stand up for son. I am very tired now. And the voice are high pitched so I am going to eat some cereal (my dinner) and read some of my book, coping with trauma because they will be silent while I read it. Then maybe I can go to bed, hopefully they will be silent after that, i will take some benedryl, two probably. I see the p-doc in the morning. thanks seldom and dinah for your replies. I do appreciate them so much
rsk and friends
Posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 20:21:28
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers, posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 19:59:30
I may be wrong, but the tone of your post sounds like you got some relief, like some weight has been lifted for now, Rsk. Sleep well, and good luck with p-doc tomorrow.
Posted by I need a hug on December 20, 2007, at 22:26:22
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers » rskontos, posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 20:21:28
RSK,
I just got home from my sister's house. I hope you get a good nights rest and that things go well for you tomorrow. It's 11:15 where I am but I am always up half of the night so if you have trouble sleeping and you want to chat, I'll keep checking my mail. I will be sending good thoughts your way tomorrow and I'm sure many others will, as well. HUGS
Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 22:32:31
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers, posted by I need a hug on December 20, 2007, at 22:26:22
Hugs, Hi I am still up. littleone is still wanting to cry an dhovering. My kids wanted to watch a very disturbing movie and I watched it with them but it bothered some. thanks for the good thoughts. My little dog is in my lap but she stinks from something she rubbed in outside. How she finds it in the snow and ice is amazing to be but she is precious and I love her so holding her helps.
I am going to take 2 benedryl now and try to sleep. Thansk for pep talk. I will let you know how it goes. Bye babblemail or post. You have a good night too. Try to get some sleep yourself. I highly recommend benedryl.
rsk
Posted by muffled on December 20, 2007, at 22:48:30
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers » rskontos, posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 20:21:28
Glad you stepped up and got p-doc appt.
Sometimes you just goto shop around and find the right fit.
I have a part that hates Godstuff, and parts that like it. Sometimes I can listen to Godstuff, sometimes I tell my T to stop, cuz it just makes me very angry.
I hope you can find meds that work for you quickly. I hope this will be a good p-doc. I think you need to be pretty straight w/p-doc so he can choose the best meds for you. Just try and relax and not sweat about who gonna be there at appt. Even if its not a good one, you can always call him later and explain. So try and relax, and feel good about the fact that your ARE being proactive and doing what you need to do, and GOOD for you for doing it!!!!!!!
I dunno wassup w/your T and meds, but mebbe you getting a mixed message due to switching?
Once your head is calmed some, hopefully it will be ALOT easier for you to settle down.
Its just so hard to do anything productive with so much switching. But I guess each day, you learn a little bit more bout your peeps, and who is who, and what their good and bad points are. Then it makes it much easier to deal with them, cuz you can relate to them on their level, and then its less misunderstandings and stuff. So I guess every day that goes by, you ARE moving ahead, and gaining ground....even if it feels so slow.
As far as bad peeps, I dunno bout yours, but my worst peep who I thot was evil....well I dunno, its not ALL bad. Its kinda scarey, but it DOES have a moral code where it can't hit unless in self defense and stuff. And a part I thot was all good, LOL, well....she got her flaws!!!! So just like dealing w/people IRL, I try to engage my peeps better side as much as possible. Cuz other than one who is proly too dammaged, the rest all got SOME good point about them....
So I wish you some inner peace for a bit.
I hope you can just say WTF and just go to p-doc appt and just whatever will be will be. Freaking about it won't help, and its just gonna be what it is. Its just the first appt. And hopefully you will be able to get some releif SOON.
I send you good thots.
Best wishes.
M
Posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 22:58:10
In reply to Wow, good for you Rsk, posted by muffled on December 20, 2007, at 22:48:30
Muffled you say some good stuff. As usual. I am going to just go and say WTF and not worry bout anything and just be me. Who ever that is in that moment. I don't know who I am but in that moment it wont matter. It will just be.
Hopefully I wont just cry off the bat like in therapy but if I do I do. I can t help it. I told him I was a mess. I said in my message I am not doing so good. And when he called back I was still crying so there. I cried today in t even though one of them said she was going to handle it since all these sniveling bitc*es can't but she ditched at the last minute. And then littleone came out and cried. so that is that. It was a good cry though. right now I don't feel like crying.
Yeah no godstuff right now. Nope mad at god for now.
Yeah maybe mixed messages. Not all like t and not all like being at T.
But we did do a good thing coming together to work together the other night. It felt good for once. Still got a headache afterwards but felt good.
Thanks for the good thoughts.
I wish you good thoughts for your day and the weekend. I know they are tough for you.
thanks Muffled.
rsk
Posted by I need a hug on December 20, 2007, at 23:13:27
In reply to Re: Wow, good for you Rsk » muffled, posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 22:58:10
I just wanted to say I'm so glad the two of you have each other. You two can identify with each other in a way that some of us can't really comprehend and you're so supportive of each other. I think you're both very special people.
Sweet Dreams (((RSK))) (((MUFFLED))) HUGS
Posted by ClearSkies on December 21, 2007, at 7:59:44
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers, posted by rskontos on December 20, 2007, at 19:59:30
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