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Posted by Sourceror on April 22, 2002, at 19:13:41
The pain goes on day after day
All I want is for it to end
Please find a way
I am being defeated
I want to give up and turn myself in
Maybe things would be better in the after life
Why must I go on
I search for answers and yet find none
I just want to give up
I keep typing in hopes to get it out
It doesn't seem to be working
Will I find happiness again??
I am doubtful in this quest.
Things seem to be caving in.
I hate to talk about it. I just want to hide.
I can't go back to the hospital again.
I hate that place.
I would rather go all the way than go back there.
I don't know how much longer I can hold out
My strength grows weaker by the moment.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I pray for the strength to end it
I pray for a way past it
I think these two prayers are fighting for attention and neither are being answered.
I just feel so weak under this weight I must bear
Is this my destiny??
Am I doomed with this life of pain???
It sucks the whole time I am writing this I am just thinking about those pills and wanting to take them.
Why am I having to bear this pain??
Why couldn't it be given to someone who could handle it.
Well I am stuck with it and now I guess I have to see how things turn out.
Sorry to drop a post like this on ya all especially since it's been so long since I have posted, but I needed to vent.
Posted by Alii on April 22, 2002, at 22:53:19
In reply to Is this my destiny??, posted by Sourceror on April 22, 2002, at 19:13:41
>>I just feel so weak under this weight I must bear<<
Me too. I'm sitting here wondering how it is that you snuck inside my head to write that!
Seriously. Each sentence you wrote is one that I've lived and felt.
I wish I had answers for you. I wish I had answers for me!! Until that time I can only offer support and let you know that your words resonated within me and I hurt too--for both of us.--Alii
Posted by Angel Girl on April 22, 2002, at 23:41:19
In reply to Is this my destiny??, posted by Sourceror on April 22, 2002, at 19:13:41
I feel your pain. I know it all too well. I've been where you are more times than I can count. It will get better. Don't give up. Are you on meds? Do you go for therapy??? Tell us more. Hang on. I know how hard it is. I've only started to feel some hope for myself recently after several months in the 'black hole'. I'll pray for you. Let us help you. <hugs>
Angel Girl
Posted by trouble on April 23, 2002, at 0:39:29
In reply to Re: Is this my destiny??, posted by Angel Girl on April 22, 2002, at 23:41:19
We haven't talked yet, but I've been getting email messages about you the past week, you have some friends on this board who worry like a mother lion when her cub vanishes. It's nice to know I'm not the only one around here suffering from a Messianiac Complex.
So welcome back, whoever you are, this is the first post of yours I've seen and you sound like you're in a good place.
Did you take a break from the board for a while? I hear you do this now and then, and if you don't mind nosy questions can I ask is it something you do on purpose to help re-orient yourself in the real world or just getting busy w/other stuff for a while?
Reason I ask is cause some folks say it's important to go away now and then for perspective. I been away 2 weeks and have no idea how it affected me, just awful glad to be back.take care,
trouble
> I feel your pain. I know it all too well. I've been where you are more times than I can count. It will get better. Don't give up. Are you on meds? Do you go for therapy??? Tell us more. Hang on. I know how hard it is. I've only started to feel some hope for myself recently after several months in the 'black hole'. I'll pray for you. Let us help you. <hugs>
>
> Angel Girl
Posted by Angel Girl on April 23, 2002, at 13:27:41
In reply to Well hello there Angel Girl, posted by trouble on April 23, 2002, at 0:39:29
Hi trouble
Thanks for the welcome. Can't imagine why you would get emails about me when we don't know each other. :) I haven't been here long, mostly a lurker but have posted a few times, usually when I'm really down. :( I've met some wonderful friends here in my short time here.
Yes, I'm afraid it is part of my MO to disappear after posting something. I'll post out of desperation and then I leave. It's hard for me to stick around when I'm in that place I call the 'black hole'. :( What a horrible place to be. I do it for perspective and also because when I'm really down, I'm not a very 'fun' person, hell, who am I kidding, I'm not fun at all, I'm HELL to be around. It's at that time that I alienate people in my life. I'm trying hard now to change that pattern because I know people worry about me.
I'm hoping to get to know y'all better. I've been reading most posts but not all. I feel alot more comfortable here than anywhere else.
Again, thanks for the 'welcome'. Glad you're back and I'm glad to be here too.
Angel Girl
> We haven't talked yet, but I've been getting email messages about you the past week, you have some friends on this board who worry like a mother lion when her cub vanishes. It's nice to know I'm not the only one around here suffering from a Messianiac Complex.
> So welcome back, whoever you are, this is the first post of yours I've seen and you sound like you're in a good place.
> Did you take a break from the board for a while? I hear you do this now and then, and if you don't mind nosy questions can I ask is it something you do on purpose to help re-orient yourself in the real world or just getting busy w/other stuff for a while?
> Reason I ask is cause some folks say it's important to go away now and then for perspective. I been away 2 weeks and have no idea how it affected me, just awful glad to be back.
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> take care,
> trouble
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> > I feel your pain. I know it all too well. I've been where you are more times than I can count. It will get better. Don't give up. Are you on meds? Do you go for therapy??? Tell us more. Hang on. I know how hard it is. I've only started to feel some hope for myself recently after several months in the 'black hole'. I'll pray for you. Let us help you. <hugs>
> >
> > Angel Girl
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