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Posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:21:43
You haven't all went and gotten better on me have you???
~tony
Posted by galkeepinon on July 20, 2003, at 20:34:51
In reply to Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:21:43
tony, man-I wish I could say that I have. I don't usually post in here, but I really hope I get some feedback. Let's call this, hmmmmmmm
Free Association..........
Has anyone ever felt like "When am I going to stop living in the past"? I hate being overweight, I'm lazy, why don't I get my periods regularly? All my feelings are stress-I know it. I'm physically unhealthy and I'm scared. Why do I continue to smoke cigarettes when I get so sick of them-I'm up to a pack a day maybe more now.
Why do I feel guilty because I want a joint and to get stoned? Why am I scared to get stoned again? It's a crime ya know! Pot is illegal-why am I such a prude. Or am I? Why do I try so hard to people please in my life with people who don't give a rat's @ss? When it's perfectly clear? I'm not stupid.Have a great night all
You haven't all went and gotten better on me have you???
> ~tony
Posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:57:43
In reply to FREE ASSOCIATION............................ » lostsailor, posted by galkeepinon on July 20, 2003, at 20:34:51
I prefer living in my past, too if that helps. I also think I like my dreams better than my life and could switch...
~t
Posted by tina on July 20, 2003, at 21:26:33
In reply to Re: FREE ASSOCIATION.............galkeepinion, posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:57:43
Not better but not as bad as I was. My problem is with my computer being a pain in the @$$
I get on when I can but there are always so many post, i get easily overwhelmed and say nothing when I should be supportive and attentive. sorry dude.
I hope you have a peaceful night and a good monday.
hugs
tina
Posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 21:34:36
In reply to Re: FREE ASSOCIATION.............tony, posted by tina on July 20, 2003, at 21:26:33
Posted by Sabina on July 20, 2003, at 22:44:59
In reply to Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:21:43
not better, no. spent the day trying to increase my seroquel as instructed...therefore on a cycle of feeling stoned, nervous, eating, sleeping then repeating. i dodn't want to post as i was dealing with some pretty heavy self hatred issues and didn't want to bring anyone down into this misery.
Posted by gabbix2 on July 20, 2003, at 22:59:53
In reply to Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:21:43
Not even close, worse actually much worse.
Contemplated visitng the hospital. But I realized no one would feed kitty. If I feel this bad tomorrow I might go though.
Not that the hospital has ever done anything for me yet. Seems I always end up in the hospital in July. I have for the last 3 years.
Posted by galkeepinon on July 20, 2003, at 23:23:40
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by Sabina on July 20, 2003, at 22:44:59
major self-hatred here too-I didn't want to bring anyone down into this misery either, guess I did-I apologize. I am just really depressed tonight, really bad. All I can do is cry-it hurts so bad. Sometimes I wonder if crying is better than meds?
I was hoping someone would hear my post-but I guess not.
That's ok.
> not better, no. spent the day trying to increase my seroquel as instructed...therefore on a cycle of feeling stoned, nervous, eating, sleeping then repeating. i dodn't want to post as i was dealing with some pretty heavy self hatred issues and didn't want to bring anyone down into this misery.
Posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 23:37:43
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by gabbix2 on July 20, 2003, at 22:59:53
gabbi,
I know how it is during summer. My doc and I talked about this just last visit. It is hard for "us" to see "them" all cuddly and happy when we feel the walls are closing in and our insides coming out.
I live a nightlife basically to avoid that. I prefer, when I go out, other than to run or ride, which I do mostly in the day to avoid getting killed, because I think the endorphins are better than my meds and it's my form of meditation.... basically, it's the only time I can concentrate on something that has nothing to do with the rest of my life.
During the winter, I was told, that all the people burrow/hibernate more and that's why I like things like snow showing and running in the daylight then...more because I don’t have to see their smiles and hardly anyone is being overtly romantic.
doc asked me what I thought about "light therapy" I told him I think it would kill me...that seemed to confirm the conversation...
For what's it's worth, my only extended visit to the hospital was in july or early aug.
~tony
Posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 23:40:03
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 23:37:43
Posted by Dinah on July 21, 2003, at 0:10:11
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by gabbix2 on July 20, 2003, at 22:59:53
Do what you need to do to keep safe, Gabbi Gabbi. July passes, and believe it or not so does heartache. And you've got school to look forward to.
Besides, one day I'll need you to remind me of what I'm telling you now.
Posted by galkeepinon on July 21, 2003, at 0:20:20
In reply to Re: FREE ASSOCIATION.............galkeepinion, posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:57:43
Thanks~t appreciate your maturity to respond:)
Yeah it's tough sometimes, I wish I could switch too. I just get tired of being there for others than when I need someone to lean on......well you know the drill;)
thanks again
take care> I prefer living in my past, too if that helps. I also think I like my dreams better than my life and could switch...
> ~t
Posted by Tabitha on July 21, 2003, at 1:32:25
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today..., posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 23:37:43
Yup sailor, it's usually quiet on weekends here, I never get it -- as that's the time I'm most lonely. But I hate to talk to an empty room, so I cut down on weekend posting.
Saturday I was quite depressed, fearing a crash coming on, but today was better. I do have a chest cold that's left me coughing and short of breath, and hypochondriacially wondering if I might have pneumonia. It came on after I spent a night sleeping directly in front of the fan. My bedroom is too hot. So I went to the home store and got the only air conditioner that I could lift by myself. Not sure if it'll be enough to cool even one room.
Posted by gabbix2 on July 21, 2003, at 12:59:01
In reply to Re: Boy it has been silent in here today... » gabbix2, posted by Dinah on July 21, 2003, at 0:10:11
Yeah, thanks Dinah, I needed that. And I promise I'll be around to remind you if you need it :)
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