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Posted by Tootercat on January 28, 2004, at 11:35:03
I just saw your post today and am hoping that you are doing better. Have been to the place where the thought of "not being here" was so much more enticing than dealing with life on it's terms. Have also been to the place where anger consumed me and the only way to "escape" was to scream and run. I have had to come to terms with the fact that anger protected me for many years to help me "survive" life. I no longer want to just survive and so I am working with someone to help me "live" with my feelings and walk with them and through them. Does any of this make sense? Sending you mucho hugs and smiles.....
Tooter
Posted by daydreamer on January 28, 2004, at 15:37:38
In reply to Daydreamer - How are you today?????, posted by Tootercat on January 28, 2004, at 11:35:03
Today?
Im alive.You know.
I remebered something.I was cleaning out my old car that day (they day I tried slicing my wrists).
Picking things out of the glove compartment and putting them in my semi-new vehicle. I was picking out things such as maps, tire gauges, pens, etc.
There were two pocket knives in there. I remember starring at the pocket knives like, "I know I need them", "you never know what will happen".
I always have my pocket knives with me in case of an emergency.
I had lost them, found them....but I didnt get them. I didnt put them in my car that day.
Why? So unordinary of me to just sit there and debate such a thing.My point is.. Im not dead now, because I didnt grab the pocket knife and put it in my new car.
I wanted to- but I didnt.
Instead I tried using everything I had that was sharp-- and could cut through the skin.
I should have had that knife with me, but I didnt...So today?
Im alive..but scared to take my meds.
Posted by Tootercat on January 28, 2004, at 16:02:32
In reply to Re: Daydreamer - How are you today?????, posted by daydreamer on January 28, 2004, at 15:37:38
I suspect the reason that you didn't transfer the knives to the new car is that it isn't "your time" to leave us. I believe that things happen or don't happen for reasons that we don't have control over. Why are you afraid to take your meds???? Mine have been a Godsend helping me come out from the horrible depression that was threatening to take away my hope....Whatever is on your mind put it out here so that it is not overwhelming you......
Hugs,
Tooter
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