![[dr. bob]](/dr-bob-sm.gif)
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.orgShown: posts 1 to 2 of 2. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by LindaWelfare on February 13, 2004, at 0:29:09
I hope this post isn't insufferable. I've just been moving through this totally weird, arcane psychodrama and was hoping someone might relate.
For the past couple of years, I've felt stupid. Where once I considered myself frothy and hyper-referential and kind of smart, now I find myself at a loss for words in the middle of modest conversation.
Worse, if I encounter someone who seems witty or more astute, or evokes the previous me, my self-esteem plummets and I feel like an idiotic fishwife.
Is there anyone out there who is CONSTANTLY calibrating their intellect and personality, sustaining an internal critic who is AT ALL TIMES denouncing you as not as interesting as you used to be, informing you with glee that you've not only missed the boat, but didn't know there was a boat to miss?
I know I'm being vague and self-indulgent, but this motif has really been destroying me for some time and I'm just hoping for a bit of comisseration.
Posted by Medusa on February 13, 2004, at 5:24:52
In reply to The Best of Navel Gazing., posted by LindaWelfare on February 13, 2004, at 0:29:09
> now I find myself at a loss for words in the middle of modest conversation.
>Are you missing vocabulary, or thoughts? I find myself missing both.
> Worse, if I encounter someone who seems witty or more astute, or evokes the previous me, my self-esteem plummets
>In this case, I try to soak up as much as possible, to forget what they might think and to just take as much as I can get. Most people like talking about themselves, and won't mind contributing more intellectually if you're really getting something out of it. I still feel rotten, but ...
> Is there anyone out there who is CONSTANTLY calibrating their intellect and personality,
>LOL does anyone -not- do this?
I'm on a mission to improve my social skills, self-management skills, understanding of the world and so on as much as possible. So my inner critic tends to focus on how slowly I'm making progress, or how far I still have to go.
> I know I'm being vague and self-indulgentYou say that like it's a bad thing ...
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Social | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.