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Posted by Chrispy_85 on October 24, 2005, at 8:30:48
i'm sorry everybody for being so stupid and worrying you all. i didn't mean to. i just don't think that i should drink anymore. when i drink a lot, it just seems to relieve the pain so much for a while, but then it just turns around so fast. i have thought about killing myself before, but everybody thinks about it once or twice. but i actually tried to end my life. and now i just feel so guilty about it. to think how it would affect everyone else in my life just makes me really sad. but at the same time, i just feel like i'm a burden to them even though they are all so supportive. i don't understand why i feel this way. i'm just very scared right now. i'm having panic attacks just from the fear of having them. and all that goes through my head when i'm having one is that i'm going to die, i'm going to die. it's like no matter how prepared for them i think i am, nothing can stop them and the same thing goes through my head every time. i guess it's just something that i'll have to learn to accept and live with. but it's just eating away at me right now. it feels like there's a constant battle for control going on inside me and i'm just so exhausted all of the time because of it. i just don't know if i can take it. it's making me go nuts. or at least that's what it feels like. i'm sorry everybody for being so stupid and scaring you. thank you for your caring though, it does help a bit.
-chris
Posted by fairywings on October 24, 2005, at 11:54:28
In reply to Thank you everyone, posted by Chrispy_85 on October 24, 2005, at 8:30:48
Hi chris,
hope you don't mind that i put the **trigger** in the subject.
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Are you still on the Effexor? Is that making you feel better or worse? If worse, maybe talk to your p-doc about finding something better, or add something for the anxiety?
I know it's hard, but try not to think of yourself as a burden to the ppl who have been so supportive. They care and want to help because you're going through a difficult time. We all need help here and there, and right now it's your turn.
Are you in therapy? Sounds like you have a lot of things you might be able to get some help with if you have a good therapist (and p-doc) - the overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I can understand how awful that would be. In the meantime, babble always makes me feel better.
fw
Posted by Chrispy_85 on October 25, 2005, at 7:52:41
In reply to Re: Thank you everyone **trigger in post** » Chrispy_85, posted by fairywings on October 24, 2005, at 11:54:28
> Hi chris,
>
> hope you don't mind that i put the **trigger** in the subject.
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> I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Are you still on the Effexor? Is that making you feel better or worse? If worse, maybe talk to your p-doc about finding something better, or add something for the anxiety?
>
> I know it's hard, but try not to think of yourself as a burden to the ppl who have been so supportive. They care and want to help because you're going through a difficult time. We all need help here and there, and right now it's your turn.
>
> Are you in therapy? Sounds like you have a lot of things you might be able to get some help with if you have a good therapist (and p-doc) - the overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I can understand how awful that would be. In the meantime, babble always makes me feel better.
>
> fw
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> Thanks for your support and care for me.
I am feeling better now...I guess i was just having a bad day. the effexor seems to help calm my constant anxiety, but it does absolutely nothing for my panic attacks. i'm also on zanax, and that kind of keeps me in a very relaxed state, which does help. but the panic attacks are just something i'm going to have to learn to live with i think. it's just like no matter how much i think i'm ready for them, the same thing happens every time. after i have one, i just feel so mentally and physically drained. They say that having a 10 min panic attack is like running a 10km marathon, and i think they're right. at the moment i'm not in therapy, my doctor is sending me to a phsyciatrst at my local hospital because it doesn't cost any money and i'm kind of broke. but he said it could take months before i get an appointment and that for now, i'll just have to wait it out. thank you for your being so optimistic for me...i need that right now.-chris
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