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Posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 15:59:56
I skipped class yesterday and today. It's horrible. I just didn't feel like getting up in the morning. I skipped a quiz today. :-(
I had time to study yesterday, but I just didn't study. I just chose not to study. I just didn't want to study.
I haven't studied today either. The bad session with my tutor has really got me down.
I just hate how my motivation can wax and wane so quickly.
It seems like I don't want to face life. I wish I could live in a dream-world.
Deneb*
Posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 19:22:28
In reply to I need some motivation, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 15:59:56
I hate this so much, this procrastination. It's overwhelming. I feel like I need to escape. I want to escape. I don't know what to do. I've ruined my life.
I wish I won the lottery and can just travel the world and not worry about anything. I don't want to face my life. I hate this so much.
I don't want to face things. This is horrible. I don't think school is for me. I should like school, not avoid it.
Who am I kidding? I can't handle the stress. I need to get a job with very few responsibilities and very little stress. I can't handle challenges.
I have to make sure I go to class tomorrow. I can't skip anymore. I have to force myself to go to class.
I can't handle life. I don't know what I'm going to do about my future. I don't want to think about it. I've ruined everything. I hate what I've become. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just study?
I can't handle life. Too much responsibility. I'm not doing so well right now this minute. It's too overwhelming. I've ruined my life. I'm trying to express myself right now without being triggering. I hate my life. I hate it. I hate who I am. I hate this so much. I can't stand it? Why can't I just study? Why can't I be a normal person? I've ruined everything. I'm going to fail everything. I'm failing in life. I don't know what to do to make things better.
I feel bad. I think I'll go knit my Bob scarf. I want to feel warm feelings. That will make me feel better, hopefully.
Deneb*
Posted by sleepygirl on March 9, 2006, at 19:35:37
In reply to Re: I need some motivation *hopeless trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 19:22:28
Hey Deneb,
You are a very smart and capable person who also happens to be a human being who isn't perfect. Thank goodness because who needs perfection - not fun at all.
You may need to do things now to catch up, and although it might be difficult you can do it.
Don't give up, all is not lost. Take care.
PS How long is that scarf now?
Posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 19:56:20
In reply to Re: I need some motivation *hopeless trigger* » Deneb, posted by sleepygirl on March 9, 2006, at 19:35:37
> Hey Deneb,
> You are a very smart and capable person who also happens to be a human being who isn't perfect. Thank goodness because who needs perfection - not fun at all.
> You may need to do things now to catch up, and although it might be difficult you can do it.That's what my pdoc always tells me.
I need some extra help. I've asked my tutor to check my studying and make sure I go to class. I've asked him to meet up with me everyday, for just a few minutes some days because I can't afford to see him for an hour everyday. Hopefully he will help me out. I just hope it wasn't an overly strange request. I just have some major motivation and procrastination problems.
I wish I had someone to help me 24/7. Someone to help get me out of bed and go to class. Someone to help me study. Someone to talk sense into me when I go insane.
> Don't give up, all is not lost.It's just hard for me to remember that sometimes. Thanks for the reminder.
Take care.
> PS How long is that scarf now?It's 56 cm right now.
Deneb*
Posted by Tanzanite on March 9, 2006, at 21:49:35
In reply to I need some motivation, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 15:59:56
I am gonna keep rooting for you over here that you will find the strength somehow. Try to break things down one thing at a time, and sometimes that will help. Just do your best and don't beat yourself up for mistakes. I actually through over a long period of time despite pitfalls (many many pitfalls) did finish my undergraduate degree. I am not able to work at this time, but I also have a combination of problems. But, I think with the right help and encouragement that you will make a way for you. And sometimes, it is so hard but we just have to do what is right for ourselves first meaning "take care of you" first and you will know what know what is best for your health hopefully. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Chelle
Posted by James K on March 9, 2006, at 23:03:43
In reply to Hiya Deneb (((Deneb))), posted by Tanzanite on March 9, 2006, at 21:49:35
I'm a 'merican, so I have no idea how long 56 cm is. This isn't going to be one of those Tom Baker Doctor Who dragging the ground scarves is it? Or more of an ascot?
James K
Posted by JenStar on March 9, 2006, at 23:16:46
In reply to Re: I need some motivation *hopeless trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 19:22:28
hi Deneb,
things will get better - they always do. :) Don't give up on yourself! Just keep plugging away until you get that degree. After college, things DO get easier. Seriously. I know life is difficult, but once you have that degree in hand you can go "whew!" and move on to other things. You've made it soooo far....just got to finish that last lap!Don't give up on yourself. You're going to feel SO good when you get that diploma and know what you've accomplished.
JenStar
Posted by Racer on March 10, 2006, at 20:35:06
In reply to 56 cm?, posted by James K on March 9, 2006, at 23:03:43
> I'm a 'merican, so I have no idea how long 56 cm is. This isn't going to be one of those Tom Baker Doctor Who dragging the ground scarves is it? Or more of an ascot?
>
> James KThere are about 2.5cm per inch, so 56cm, divided by 2.5, is 22."
Posted by Susan47 on March 12, 2006, at 10:39:36
In reply to I need some motivation, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 15:59:56
I'm the same way with my own motivation, I think .. now yes, now no, mostly no .. and I know, Deneb, that it's fear that's the thing holding me back. I already know I'm going to mess it up, nothing I do is good enough and if I start then that just leads to the end, which won't be finished. I don't know if I've ever finished anything .. well, one or two things but I've started a thousand. It's horrible. Try to get the wheel to unfold, like Harold and the Purple Crayon .. I love that series .. I'm going to go look for it .. let's do a search ... I LOVE that series .. my eldest, who's an incredible, wonderful brilliant man .. that was one of his favourite series and I think I know why, but I need to colour all the walls of my apartment in a purple crayon, drawing my life, a path for me to follow ... (((Deneb)))
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