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Posted by corafree on October 13, 2006, at 15:37:51
His mania is sooo fun, especially for him! But it is contagious. 'I need a buzz', but in tryin' live a normal life, also need grounding, and can't find that anywhere w/ him, or me.
Love him? I think about him all the time. I worry about him. I can't stand thinking of him w/ someone else. Is this love? Love has so many un-meanings to me now. It wasn't what I thought it was at one time or another.
He has a mother-son attachment big time and she is ill. I think this is what is pushiing him to push me into a decision. He wants a commitment from me, now!
I know he's taking mood stabilizer Depakote, but not sure taking any anti-psychotic as he says he takes nothing during the day. He takes Restoril for sleep (4hrs or so). Wish Topamax was on 'the system' formulary.
He's a comedian, a poet, an artist, a well-dressed man, ... dam*it he's even handsome and seductive. If you met him, you'd feel like 'you were very important' as he talked to you.
How do I let him go? He's been a part of my life for sooo many yrs. And, there is no other one to take his place (You know, that replace one w/ a better, thing).
I know he's done bad things while using, but tonight wanted to go to an NA meeting w/ daughter. Good intentions.
I don't give up ... that's not me ... doesn't he need me. I feel he'd be 'in jail' or 'dead' if I'd not been in his life to direct him to psych system.
ultimatum?me?, cf
Posted by Phillipa on October 13, 2006, at 16:49:15
In reply to Rainydayman is really Icecreamman!, posted by corafree on October 13, 2006, at 15:37:51
Sounds like you're being co-dependant. He's not stable now. Do you feel you're stable? Love Phillipa
Posted by Phillipa on October 13, 2006, at 16:52:56
In reply to Rainydayman is really Icecreamman!, posted by corafree on October 13, 2006, at 15:37:51
Corafree and you just said it NEED not desire or want. And does he want you to assume care for his Mother? Love Phillipa ps no word love either
Posted by corafree on October 14, 2006, at 23:32:36
In reply to Re: Rainydayman is really Icecreamman! » corafree, posted by Phillipa on October 13, 2006, at 16:49:15
Got back online to respond, but now cannot receive email.
I asked him again about being on an anti-psychotic and he's not ... just Depakote and Restoril, and I guess Imitrex for HA.
I'm pretty stable yeah. I'm back on Effexor-XR, for a bit only, no side effects besides no appetite, so maybe will lose the 10lbs I put on since moving here.
He and I had really good talk last night .. for first time he 'really' spoke from his heart. connection.
Tried to explain mania re: 'he could do it all', but he didn't want to discuss. I'm so surprised that no one else in his life is concerned about his behavior.
cf
Posted by corafree on October 15, 2006, at 0:57:22
In reply to Re: Rainydayman is really Icecreamman!, posted by Phillipa on October 13, 2006, at 16:52:56
He loves me.
Yes, I wonder about 'looking for someone to replace his mother, his protector', too, should she pass away.
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