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Posted by Rjlockhart on November 8, 2006, at 22:42:17
I dont know, i have been putting on a frount lately that everything is ok. I look really good today, i look sleek, but inside im screaming. I feel im going mad, everything is coming at once.
I think i "throw myself" on to people blasting them with all my life problems. It just depends on the person, but logically people dont really want to hear you problems exept thepists.
I am so miserable. God what can anyone offer me? Life coping Skills? I cant go back on psychostimulants, i dont know Strattera? i went on that and it made me mad. Wellbutrin made me crazy.
2nd of all, well i just want to just go in a room and just scream, but that would not do any good exept giving me a sore through, which lately i have noticed people are have the cold.
What do you think when you see a person rubbing hands anginenst there face, thinking of misery, like my face right now feels im very unstable.
What is happening. I cant focus, i cant think, well i can but when i do think its bad, and makes its even worse, so what else can i say.
So much mindless chatter inside my head im going mad. I do not have schizophrenia, even though i want to go just away for a while.
Dammit i feel so unstable, i feel i have to be in a safe place, i have bad coping skills, i lose things, i live in a home that is toxic and right now i i dont have enought money to get out.
I have to vent, there is no one vent to, if i vent to myself i go insane. I dont know am i insane? am i going insane? I HAVE asked this question so many times. I FEEL i am, this unstablness feeling.
Im getting ready to go to a social i dont want to go to because i may say something that should not be said, i say provactive things when im very unstable. Or i just dont talk.
I cant make friends when im like this.
Matt
Posted by Rjlockhart on November 8, 2006, at 22:42:18
In reply to I am miserable. Tormenting thoughts,, posted by Rjlockhart on November 7, 2006, at 19:33:00
I feel im splitting. I GET this feeling an egg is cracking over my head. I noticed just a while ago a voice says "you have a routine" "why dont we go to this church social tonight" like another personality. Which i do, but the voice tone changed.
I am not hearing anyhting, and i know that schizophrenia is when you hear voices, are paranoid, think the TV is talking to you directly.
I dont know, just anyhting now, just throw me in a psyche ward so i can think of what is happening. GOD!
This is the most miserable point am at.
Lock me up hell i rather be in psyche room by myself than having this all come at me at once.
Matt
Posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2006, at 22:42:18
In reply to Re: I am miserable. Tormenting thoughts,, posted by Rjlockhart on November 7, 2006, at 19:41:35
Matt e-mail me . You can safely vent to me. I always listen don't I? I'm also safe. You can't get in trouble with me. Love Mom Phillipa
Posted by Racer on November 8, 2006, at 22:42:18
In reply to I am miserable. Tormenting thoughts,, posted by Rjlockhart on November 7, 2006, at 19:33:00
I noticed that you said in your post that you don't have good coping skills. Have you considered working on that? Working on developing better coping skills? I think that would help you a lot -- what do you think?
I hope you did go to that social tonight, because I think the more time you spend around other people, the less time you have to ruminate on these things. Your rumination seems to be bad for you, which you also pointed out in your post. It seems to me that you're getting more insight into yourself, which is a good thing -- even if it doesn't seem that way right now.
And Matt? You're not schizophrenic. Trust me. Schizophrenia is more than "hearing voices" -- it's a thought disorder, and you don't have it. What you do have is overwhelming anxiety, and I think trying something like an SSRI to reduce that anxiety would be in your best interests.
Good luck.
Posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2006, at 23:37:41
In reply to I'm sorry you're feeling so bad » Rjlockhart, posted by Racer on November 8, 2006, at 0:24:18
Matt Racer's right you're not schizophrenic and please try to let us know you're okay. Love Phillipa
Posted by corafree on November 9, 2006, at 1:56:59
In reply to Re: I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2006, at 23:37:41
I'm also having a bad night RJ.
Don't want to lie down to sleep for fear of persecution nightmares, and because it is lonely in that big bed, and, ridiculously enough, because then I'll have to wake up in the morning and realize I'm all alone.
RU home or did you go out?
thinkinofU, cf
Posted by Rjlockhart on November 9, 2006, at 19:36:09
In reply to Re: I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, posted by corafree on November 9, 2006, at 1:56:59
Yes, i went to well a get together with some friends, at church. I talked and acted like i was fine but like i said inside i wanted to explode. It did make me feel better, but coming back home is not really good.
I dont know really what im going to do. Misery right now is my middle name.
I didnt have a breakdown even though i wanted to i kept myself together. But its hard when you feel your falling apart.
Alot of people dont know here how to realate to my situation,
1. They dont know what my mom is like
2. My personality.
3. What is racing through my head.I need to vent more here.
Matt
Posted by Phillipa on November 9, 2006, at 19:47:07
In reply to Re: I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, posted by Rjlockhart on November 9, 2006, at 19:36:09
Matt vent away but be careful with those bad words the mostly swear ones. Love Phillipa
Posted by Racer on November 15, 2006, at 10:59:04
In reply to Re: I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, posted by Rjlockhart on November 9, 2006, at 19:36:09
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> Alot of people dont know here how to realate to my situation,
> 1. They dont know what my mom is like
> 2. My personality.
> 3. What is racing through my head.
>
> I need to vent more here.
>
> MattMatt? I know venting is one way to relieve some of the pressure, but have you considered other options?
What I'm thinking right now, after reading this, is that it's a recipe for status quo. If you want something to change, venting isn't enough. DOING something will help, though.
Does this mean I don't know enough to make recommendations, since after all you've suggested that nothing can change? Not at all. Does this mean I don't believe you when you tell us how bad it is for you? Not at all.
It means that I know you can make changes that will help you cope better with life -- with or without meds.
Good luck.
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