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Posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
I have treatment resistant depression/dysthymia that's made worse by some interpersonal difficulties and negative thinking patterns. My mood varies from somewhat low to darn low. I also feel irritable, although my doctor seems to think my irritation isn't unreasonable.
I have a psychiatrist--a resident--who I trust him 100%, and I am someone who always doubts people. I know that he's dedicated to helping me, and he's always been consistent and caring. However, we have struggled with medication. It seems like no medications work for me and when they do I have side effects that I can't tolerate (extreme weight gain and total anorgasmia). The drug that helped me the most was Celexa.
My doctor seems to feel that medication isn't going to be the answer for me, since they either don't work or I experience intolerable side effects.
My problem right now is that my mood is TERRIBLE! There are things that are bothering me: I'm in school but feel I have chosen the wrong career...I am breaking up with my boyfriend (*no doubt* due to the depression causing me to act needy and difficult), but it's not just these things. My MOOD is awful. When I wake up I have to drag myself out of bed. There is nothing I enjoy, I have no hobbies, I'm quite isolated and have a hard time making and keeping friends. When I think about these things my eyes fill up with tears.
I will talk to my doc about this tomorrow, but I just don't know what to do next. Medication hasn't worked in the past...why will it now? I can go on Celexa again but I'm no doubt going to have the same problems as before. I can try another medication, but I've tried most of them already and basically nothing works. Where should I go from here?
Posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:06:40
In reply to Everything feels like it's going wrong, posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
I know my original message was long, but I wanted to add that I'm *barely* managing with my life. I am able to get by at school/work, but I will never *achieve* if things keep going this way. My mood gets in the way of not only my enjoyment of life but my energy, ability and enthusiasm for doing new things. I need to get a grip on this problem!
Posted by wishingstar on January 31, 2007, at 20:06:31
In reply to Everything feels like it's going wrong, posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
Hi Danna... I'm sorry you're hurting so much right now. I've definitely been there too and I know how hard it can be just to get out of bed and function sometimes. I'm also resistant to medications.
You didnt mention this, but are you in therapy? If not, I'd recommend trying it. It sounds like there are a lot of situational things going on in your life right now in addition to your depression (school, boyfriend, etc) and therapy is great for dealing with those things. It might not cure it all, but it might help some, and it's worth a shot, right?
I'm sorry if that sounds overly simplistic.
Posted by Phillipa on January 31, 2007, at 21:24:55
In reply to Re: Everything feels like it's going wrong, posted by wishingstar on January 31, 2007, at 20:06:31
Wishingstar excellent advise to Danna. Love Phillipa
Posted by Kath on January 31, 2007, at 22:05:47
In reply to Everything feels like it's going wrong, posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
Dear Danna,
I don't really have any suggestions, but I want you to know that I care about you as a person.
Sounds like you do have 1 person who is totally dedicated to helping you. This is really encouraging, at least. Have you talked to this person about the things you've said in the posts?
luv, Kath
Posted by cubic_me on February 1, 2007, at 9:34:19
In reply to Everything feels like it's going wrong, posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
> I have treatment resistant depression/dysthymia that's made worse by some interpersonal difficulties and negative thinking patterns. My mood varies from somewhat low to darn low. I also feel irritable, although my doctor seems to think my irritation isn't unreasonable.
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> I have a psychiatrist--a resident--who I trust him 100%, and I am someone who always doubts people. I know that he's dedicated to helping me, and he's always been consistent and caring. However, we have struggled with medication. It seems like no medications work for me and when they do I have side effects that I can't tolerate (extreme weight gain and total anorgasmia). The drug that helped me the most was Celexa.
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> My doctor seems to feel that medication isn't going to be the answer for me, since they either don't work or I experience intolerable side effects.
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This could be me! I have dysthymia/depression too, and the only med that has worked is mirtaziapine (I gained 30lb in 9 weeks).Therapy a few years ago really helped with the negative thinking, and now my pdoc has started doing therapy with my herself as she too doesn't think there's a med out there for me. I've only been going for 2 weeks, so can't give you a progress report yet, but it makes me feel more hopefull just to know I'm trying something and there's a chance I'll get to feel better (and do more than just function, like you).
What does your pdoc think might help you?
Posted by DannaB on February 4, 2007, at 17:48:43
In reply to Re: Everything feels like it's going wrong » DannaB, posted by cubic_me on February 1, 2007, at 9:34:19
Hey folks,
I'm in therapy and plan to stick with it. It's the only thing that helps me feel better, even if only temporarily.
This breakup is killing me...the one person I want to talk to is my boyfriend, and we're not talking right now. I want to cuddle up to him, that's the only time I feel happy and safe and now maybe he's gone. School is a nightmare and I just have to keep going and hope I'm not making a huge mistake with the field I'm pursuing.
Posted by DannaB on February 4, 2007, at 17:51:01
In reply to Re: Everything feels like it's going wrong » DannaB, posted by Kath on January 31, 2007, at 22:05:47
Thanks for saying that, that is sweet. I really appreciate it.
It just hurts sooo much to break up with someone. It's hard to stand it. It's a miserable feeling.
Posted by Kath on February 4, 2007, at 18:13:41
In reply to To Kath, posted by DannaB on February 4, 2007, at 17:51:01
> It just hurts sooo much to break up with someone. It's hard to stand it. It's a miserable feeling.
Hi Danna, I can totally relate to your pain. When my first husband had an affair & left, I would wake up in the night, sit up in bed & the actual pain in the centre of my chest would feel like my heart was breaking.
I am so sorry. It's an awful kind of pain & is really hard to stand.
(((((((((((((((((((((((you))))))))))))))))))))))))
wish I could be there in person to hug you or say, "hey, lets curl up on the couch & have a cuddle." I have a friend (a female like me) & the first time she said lets' have a cuddle it felt weird. But now, if either of us needs one, we'll have a cuddle on the couch & it is SO reassuring & comforting.
I hope that day by day you feel a little bit better each day.
love, Kath
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