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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 5, 2010, at 21:48:12
Sometimes there are thing that...people I know, If had just more power to grow and get better than I used to be and not under the opionion's of other from the past. Do you look down on people who look down on you? I mean yes...but after rejection, I have someone I know that is a very cruel person that I used to work for and...i'm glad i'm gone because if I ever went back, it would be the same thing over again, I never got inviteded to family thing's and it's just that way. Vanity speaking evil of other/s I know...It just hurt's so much, but I can't put my guard down and let myself be hurt again over vanity itself.
What should I do, I have just lost alot of things, I cannot function well, and I get so frustrated at myself because I know that I could be somwhere in life that I could be so much more better at than, this i'm living right now. Why does God let evil succeed? we'll that's not a question he just allow's it, I mean if the world blew up he would say "start over".. there is alot of disappointment's God has done but he's higher than us, so I guess he do whatever he want's. Anyways...
I just don't know what to do, people here don't understand me...they don't respond, because just nothing to say. One rule of thumb, do not talk about yourself all the time, I learned this and I realize I do it....be humble.
What can I get here? because I know that somethings you have to contribute to other's for a good relationship, not just "take".
I just want to learn to become a better person here on this site, I journal too much and it leads to nothing, what's the use of vain words to God, there's faith, but also there longsuffering and that's a fruit of the holy spirit. I sure don' like that bite of the of the fruit.
Just if someone reads this, what can I do with my life?
Posted by emmanuel98 on January 5, 2010, at 23:39:01
In reply to What do you do after rejection?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 5, 2010, at 21:48:12
> Just if someone reads this, what can I do with my life?
RJ - You became addicted to speed. You can't get it anymore and now seem stuck, just desiring it over and over and unable to get it and move on. Have you thought about going to NA or AA?? There you would meet new people who have also gotten stuck in an addiction. There are young people's meetings, so you could meet people your own age whol might become friends and get you beyond your relationship with your brother and mother. You can find meetings by googling AA or NA and entering your zipcode.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 20:04:28
In reply to What do you do after rejection?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 5, 2010, at 21:48:12
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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 20:53:05
In reply to Re: What do you do after rejection?, posted by emmanuel98 on January 5, 2010, at 23:39:01
What the 360 outlook for me, see I did abuse stimulants because it promoted mental alertness while going through some times that I just had difficulty doing, they did this back in WW2, You will be suprised that alot of people do take stimulants, it's just not out and known because I "propagandaized" my abuse for attention. Now, people take antidepressants almost everyday and frankly I think it's a "cosmetic addiction" because there are some who cannot function with out and antidepressants, back in the old day's people did get through times with no DRUGS [excuse me] and lived a life. Does this mean that I'm addicted to Prozac, Wellbutrin, Xanax XR, and other medications? It's medication, but DEXEDRINE and ADDERALL are known for abuse, because "why?" it's speed! and alot people take these medications and don't have a problem with it. You know, at work people just "pop" adderall like it's "candy" to keep them peppy, and drink EXPRESSO's with it. That's the same thing that happened back in the 1950's when they opened up Benzedrine inhalers in their coffee for a boost for the day. So, don't alway's think about "speed" in this case....I know alot of people that you could judge besides me, that have had worse problems than this. And I don't take it anymore, what's happening..I'm getting a scan done and finished, my doctor is waiting for the results if 'stimulant' medication is needed because of areas in the brain.
I do want to say, it just "frustrates", people just say it's speed, yes it is speed....but amphetamine correct's something that isnt stimulated, So an example is "coffee" or "wellbutrin" in replacement of a stimulant which is usally used in these cases, and I do take Wellbutrin, yet it doesnt correct forgetfulness, clumsiness, alot of ADD things, but there are some people that are against stimulants because they are amphetamines.
My brother has a american dream life, the only thing I just want to do...is be "a brother" but there are many things that are looked down on me, choices I made, then there are "mental" difficulties that I cannot help, I still have problems socializing and having friends, and I'm in psychological agony everyday, and I admit I cannot have a normal life.
Stimulants improve concentration and the ability to "socialize" normal with out feeling like some "dimwit". Where I went wrong, high amounts of amphetamines cause you to be a "superhuman" it's like running in 5th gear when you should be in 2nd gear. My doctor just has to have my mother's approval for this, because I told my mom "trust" envolved, she has moniter dexedrine or adderall because it's just prone for abuse, and I blew it in the past.
Anyways, back to my brother...I used to have a good relationship and had fun times, what happened is I got older and I didnt change like I was suppost to, it's a developmental disorder, and really I hate it. You have this "mentor" like image when your little, but when you get older sometimes your mentor's don't care for you. What I did was "ran away" because I just could not handle the demands that where asked, and I thought I would be better, feeling proud..we'll all that went down the drain, and came to nothing. My mother cares for me, yet I know that this is not normal, but just the love that she show's is something good, and she is the main one that will say "yes" or "no" to the doctor because she just known's what truely needs to be done, and I learned it's going to be that way until I can move out and be independent, the situation is I can't "hold" a job, without being treated with medication [which is stimulants] Now, I know that has "addict" written all over that message, I just have to tell the truth, I just cannot function well, and if you still think it's addict behavior, I give up. But I wrote these things to show you the overview I see.
Thanks for your post
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 21:04:13
In reply to Re: What do you do after rejection?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 20:53:05
What I want to do, I have alot of posts here in the past that where just "meaningless". And the big thing about this site, you cannot delete a post. Never put your real name here, or refer to anything that relates to an outside source that is valid in a search enjine like google.
I want to leave from the old things I percieved, and get on a path of improvement, get along with poster's, and cause no conflict because I did in the past. Just "peace" that's all that's needed.
My goal's are to get back with my family, and actaully start functioning as a normal human being, not hiding somewhere like a kid that's afraid of the "big boots"....
So...anyway's can you just see my situation a little better? just the fact's? that's all I want to be given and improved, this site can be like a Cognitive Behavior Therpy Online thing.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 7, 2010, at 0:16:35
In reply to Re: What do you do after rejection?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 6, 2010, at 21:04:13
I just got out of bed, can't sleep...what i'm wanting you to know is that it's an effective medication, and so many people refer to d-amphetamine as speed. Yes it is, but for this case, it just improves thinking and makes life more "fuctional"
There's alot of people who "eat" "pop" adderall..then go to starbucks and enjoy a exresso with the amphetamine. Back in the 50's they used Benzedrine Inhaler's and broke them and put the cotton into their coffee. Same thing exept that was a couple generations ago.
So I hate to be the center of attention about this because there is many more people that do this collage, people I work with...they just pop adderall like popcorn! yum yum! that was buzzy good!
Just try to understand my point...I do not have these symtomps when I take stimulant medication, I just propgandaized my abuse and it got me here.
thanks
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