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Posted by alexandra_k on July 20, 2010, at 8:04:19
what have i been up to?
much of the same, i guess...
still 'finishing up' the thesis... not really making many gains on it as a matter of fact.
applied to medical school and waiting to hear from them (but very optimistic since the interview went 'very well' according to them and academic committee makes final decision)
getting much much better at olympic weightlifting. madly in love with my coach (fairly optimistic there, too but will see as he needs to break up with his girlfriend for there to be any hope at all though the flirting is proceeding very well indeed).
LOVE the gym. totally astounded with the changes to my body (very happy) and also with the changes to my self confidence. Getting interpersonally braver with smiling at people etc but still feel fight / flight response when people get in my personal space. channeling that into lifting okay, though.
I wonder if I'll make the Olympics??
That would be fun, heh heh.
:-)
Posted by Phillipa on July 20, 2010, at 13:01:34
In reply to well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 20, 2010, at 8:04:19
Sounds very positive. Congrats Phillipa
Posted by Toph on July 20, 2010, at 13:57:55
In reply to well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 20, 2010, at 8:04:19
Hey Alex. I'm not here much anymore but thought I'd say hi since I saw your post. Good luck getting into med school. You always struck me as bright. That can be intimidating, but you're really scary now that you can beat me up too. Good to hear that things are going well for you.
Posted by 10derHeart on July 20, 2010, at 17:47:12
In reply to well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 20, 2010, at 8:04:19
Sounds great!
Thanks for letting us know. Gosh do I need to use your gym devotion as a model...I am so out of shape :-(
i was *just* thinking about you before you posted....spooky, huh?
:-)
Posted by fayeroe on July 20, 2010, at 23:30:43
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Posted by alexandra_k on July 21, 2010, at 1:03:12
In reply to Re: well... before this gets deleted... » alexandra_k, posted by Toph on July 20, 2010, at 13:57:55
> you're really scary now that you can beat me up too.
Hey, I didn't say boxing or martial arts...
You are probably too heavy for me to pick you up and throw you over my head just yet - but I'm working on it.
Heh heh
:-)
And here she goes 105kg:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_oiF_S4eK1I&feature=related
DAMN!!! I can only do 30 :-(
Posted by Dinah on July 21, 2010, at 10:46:45
In reply to well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 20, 2010, at 8:04:19
You really have seemed happier since you started going to the gym. :)
Almost... Only *almost*, it makes me think I ought to get in better shape. Well, I know I ought to, but I don't expect it to make me happy.
Is there a deadline for your thesis?
Posted by alexandra_k on July 21, 2010, at 19:32:08
In reply to Re: well... before this gets deleted... » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on July 21, 2010, at 10:46:45
Yes. Much happier. Of course I'm not really in love with my coach. I'm in love with the ideal of strength / beauty. Of becoming / merging with that. I am an emotional lifter, though (surprise) and feeling pissed about someone being in my face or feeling horny as hell seem to help my lifts. As the weight gets bigger you start to release more growth hormone and testosterone and stuff... Does help one feel vigorous and alive... Pretty hooked on it, yeah.
No deadline for thesis as such. Funding about gone... Will finish up at some point but not before I start medicine. I don't really feel rushed with it. More just enjoying the gym... Know it is terrible... But doing a whole bunch of eating and sleeping and training and rinse and repeat.
I love it how my brain goes on holiday when I'm lifting. How I'm not thinking about. anything. How I'm feeling vibrant and alive... Or sometimes dissociated, yeah. When everything is screaming 'I don't want to do that you can't make me' and you just grind on through it and yay another personal best and then the endorphins come... Sweet relief.
Felt like I've had the weight of the world on my shoulders for most of my life. Only nobody knew that. Now I'm gaining the ability to throw it off my shoulders over my head. And now people can see the weight I can lift. The strength I have. But really... It is a mastery over past burdens more than anything else. Right now... I feel like I just want to do this all day forever. But I know the feeling will pass and eventually I'll set into a rythm of work, train, rest etc. Find balance or something lol.
Posted by Dinah on July 22, 2010, at 17:07:42
In reply to Re: well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 21, 2010, at 19:32:08
Your post really touched me.
But I suppose I should agree from experience that one can't avoid the nasty realities forever, and dissociation may cause as many problems as it solved. But as long as you're doing what you need to do...
My doctor today sentenced me to regular exercise, starting slow. I don't expect to feel better from it. I never have, not even when I regularly attended aerobics classes and walked.
Posted by Deneb on July 23, 2010, at 3:04:05
In reply to Re: well... before this gets deleted..., posted by alexandra_k on July 21, 2010, at 19:32:08
I think it's so great that you are going to the gym and enjoying it!
I got out of the routine, but I should start up again. Perhaps I need to look into more weight lifting and less cardio.
I don't think there is anything wrong with going to the gym instead of doing other things if you think that going to the gym will benefit you more.
Life is short, you should do the things you enjoy. :-)
Posted by alexandra_k on July 25, 2010, at 19:08:19
In reply to Re: well... before this gets deleted... » alexandra_k, posted by Deneb on July 23, 2010, at 3:04:05
Well, I think you should do this, Deneb:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8deYJoDuM_I
I would... But my feet injuries well and truly rule it out.
I used to try and numb my emotionality with sleep and sedatives (including carbs). Am learning that it can be channelled and expressed with sport, though. And, really, would you be terribly upset if you looked like either of them? Or had the ability to truly defend and look after yourself and those who you care about?
I'm sure you start small and work up to sparing and only compete if you choose... I so wish I could do that heh heh.
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