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Posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 21:27:41
I'm stressed out. I want to escape or something. I have this irrational thought of just ODing or something. I won't of course, I just want to escape.
I think I want to die, but only temporarily, which I know is impossible. Sigh. I wish I could just handle normal amounts of stress like normal people.
I'm so stressed out. I haven't been getting enough sleep (for me) because I am so busy all the time now. It's good that I am busy, but at the same time it is stressful.
I really don't know whether or not I could handle a full time job and that makes me so disappointed in myself.
There is no way I'm going to live past 100. All this anxiety cannot be good for longevity. Not to mention wanting to die temporarily. That can't be good.
Posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 21:55:12
In reply to I'm stressed out, want to escape or something, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 21:27:41
Pdoc told me to do progressive muscle relaxation several times a day. I just tried to do it because my heart is racing. It didn't work. I don't think I did it right. My heart is still racing. I took a propranolol.
I think I need a guided CD or something to do the relaxation thing correctly.
When my heart is racing I think, I wish my heart would stop beating. LOL Which is ridiculous because that means I'd be dead. LOL
Argh, I hate my freaking mental problems! I just wish my heart would stop racing! I know it is just regular plain old sinus tachycardia because pdoc ordered an EKG. Sinus tachycardia was caught on the EKG, my anxiety has been confirmed physically. I feel vindicated. LOL
Posted by Maxime on October 28, 2010, at 15:36:48
In reply to Re: I'm stressed out, want to escape or something, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 21:55:12
I can understand the need to escape. What if you went for a nice long walk? Or go and see a movie? Go window shopping? They are all great escapes that don't harm you. Do you have any friends you could call up and go and have tea somewhere?
You know, maybe you are right. Maybe you will only be able to handle a part time job. And that is OK. It's good to know your limitations.
Just brainstorm some healthy ways that you can use to "escape". You don't need to hurt yourself.
Posted by Deneb on October 28, 2010, at 20:46:16
In reply to Re: I'm stressed out, want to escape or something » Deneb, posted by Maxime on October 28, 2010, at 15:36:48
Maybe I will go see a movie this weekend. I need to take some time off job hunting.
I won't hurt myself. Don't worry.
Posted by Dinah on October 30, 2010, at 11:09:52
In reply to I'm stressed out, want to escape or something, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 21:27:41
My therapist says that when I'm stressed I think of death like other people think of running away to Tahiti.
I try to think of it now as a pleasant daydream like running away to Tahiti, and just as impractical. In both daydreams the practicalities of the escape are minimized. I'm pretty sure most people wouldn't care for Tahiti as much as they think they would. Or death.
Maybe you can work, when you aren't so stressed, at creating your own Tahiti you can run away to? One place I used to use was curled up under my therapist's desk. It has a large area with no drawers so it wouldn't actually be very uncomfortable and it would feel very safe. Wouldn't a corner under, say, Dr. Bob's desk feel safer than what would happen to you at death? Which is really pretty gross, if you make the mistake of thinking about it.
Posted by Deneb on October 30, 2010, at 12:01:02
In reply to Re: I'm stressed out, want to escape or something » Deneb, posted by Dinah on October 30, 2010, at 11:09:52
Hehe, yeah, that is nicer to think about. (((((Dr. Bob)))))
Maybe I'll think of being in Hawaii with Dr. Bob and another Babbler. We can be sipping our Hawaiian drinks on the pristine beach. :-)
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