Posted by joann on June 11, 1999, at 15:39:34
I had a breakdown about 3 years ago. I ended up in the hospital 5 separate times in 7 months. I cannot remember most of that time. They put me on meds and sent me to group councelling. The group councelling was kind of a joke. I never said much, just smiled politely. I am not much of a talker, in fact, that is why I am writing on this forum. I get panicky when I have to speak. Anyway, the head of group said I was okay and didn't need it anymore. Now all the help i get are the meds. I take Wellbutrin, Depakote, Respiridal, Trazadone and Ativan. I see the med doctor once every 4 months for about 15 minutes.
I have been working for 1.5 years so everyone thinks that I am fine, but I am not. I just don't know how to tell anyone or who to tell. Everyday is an effort to keep going and it is getting worse. The only thing that keeps me going are my kids, but I don't know how much longer I can hang on, even for them. I told the med doc that I was feeling suicidal and all he said was "don't do it."
Anyway, I live in San Jose, CA. Anyone know of any good councelors that can help a person who gets panicky when she has to talk?
poster:joann
thread:7287
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