Posted by Cindy W on June 5, 2000, at 21:24:15
In reply to Re: TO CAM: NEED HELP; SOMEONE PLEASE ANSWER; OCD, posted by Angela on June 5, 2000, at 9:59:25
> Cindy,
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> thanks for your input about the response time. i am having a really hard time right now and it seems like things are getting worse instead of better. i'm currently unemployed and looking for a job, but its very difficult to do this when i don't want to get out of bed and have no desire to do anything.
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> i have mostly obsessions, and right now they're about my husband, which is quite disturbing and frightening. ironically enough, i feel most safe and comfortable when i'm with him. during the day when i'm home by myself, i'm a mess. i have cold sweats a lot and just a general feeling of yuck! i feel better also when i see or talk to my pdoc, but i realize i can't talk to or see him everyday. i'm seeing him once a week and that should be more than enough, but sometimes i feel like its not.
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> when i talked to him on sunday, my pdoc said to just be patient and he knows that depression and OCD suck and things will get better. he keeps trying to think of new meds to add to what i'm taking and i don't want to keep taking more meds, especially if they're not necessary. his other "solution" is to check me into the hospital for a week or two, which neither of us wants me to do.
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> when i go to sleep at night, i'm usually fine - calm and not obsessing that much. but when i wake up, it all starts again and i'm miserable. i want to cry, but i know that won't help. it might make me feel better for a while though! :)
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> sorry to babble on like this, but its nice to talk to someone who has OCD and understands what its like. thanks!
>Angela, have you read any of the self-help OCD books, which provide self-help cognitive behavior therapy to reduce obsessions? I read those, between visits with my pdoc. Also, I kind of have a "virtual therapist" in my head and talk to him when I'm waiting for another appointment. I can relate to the feeling of not wanting to get out of bed. OCD is really an energy-drain, especially if combined with depression. Have you found any of the OCD newsletters yet (e.g., OCD-L@VM.MARIST.EDU or the OCD support groups at egroups.com)? They have been helpful for me. If I can ever help, please let me know! I've been there again and again (and again and again!).--Cindy W
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