Posted by ST on March 12, 2002, at 5:12:53
In reply to long post, sorry, lots of problems today, posted by trouble on March 12, 2002, at 4:15:13
Trouble,
I, too, have wanted to kill myself suddenly over something *like* losing $500. Everything is going fine in my life and then suddenly, the floor falls out - I'm being sent to collections by the phone company or I made a mistake in my calculations and I'm overdrawn by hundreds of dollars in my bank account and I want to die.
I used to go through periods of not seeing my pdoc, thinking I had nothing to report or to talk about. Then I'd have some sort of freak out. I don't know...I started keeping my appointments and had some sessions that started out with me saying: "I have nothing to talk about...there's nothing really to talk about" and then I leave the office 50 minutes later in tears, having had some emotional breakthrough. I guess you should continue to see your doc even through those times when you feel OK to really see if you are. Or sometimes when you're feeling more stable (or like you don't need to see your doc) is exactly the right time to start sorting out certain pscychological crap you haven't been able to deal with in past sessions.
Does this even help?
It's good that you're learning to stop and breath before panicking. I have the ability to totally FREAK OUT in LA traffic when I'm late. For the most part I now just say my little mantra: "Freaking out will not get you there any faster and, besides, you'll be miserable the whole way there". Maybe before you leave in the morning or leave a client's house you can go through a check list: Wallet? Keys? Directions? Do I need to get gas? But I'm sure you're doing that anyway...
Sarah
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