Posted by hotagent339 on January 4, 2005, at 0:21:29
In reply to Re: Wow, posted by banga on January 3, 2005, at 20:33:43
Thanks for you message. I did make some attempt to show that I am slowly warming up..I sent them a link to some Christmas photos that were taken at my family's house for Christmas. My husband when to their house but Claire, our daughter, and I were not to be part of their festivities. Im sure they were jealous of the fun Xmas we had with my family but oh well.
I hope they think the photos are a good will gesture and not a "rub it in your face" type thing. My father in law gets back to his office tomrrow so he'll see them then. My husband has promised to let me know if/when he hears feedback from his dad about the photos. We'll see..Ill let ya know what I find out! Our therapist has suggested that I send little emails or we send cards with ALL of our signatures on it to show we are "coming around" or being the bigger people in this situation to work things out. I guess its to show them that I am "calm" and not neurotic to fly off the handle. Like I said, Im the WHOLE problem. Sure...With the help of all of you, I have made the decision to say, "F*** them!" in my head. I dont need their approval and I never have. I knew that in my head but I let it get the best of me. I was really mad that Mike didnt step up for me in the beginning. At least Im beginning to realize where most of my anger should be placed.
I think the incident with the money and the recinding of the offer house was the straw that broke the camels back. I was so angry after that and thats when I wrote the letter that got this all started. My father in law has applogized to Mike but has never said a word to ME about it...Mike and I are a team...He still treats us like Mike is the ONLY one who runs things. Fact is, I am the one. Mike wouldnt remember to tie his shoe if I didnt tell him to! haha Im the super organized one and efficent one. I have to be to remember everthing for our household and to run my business by myself.
Anyway, on to the Topmax. I have noticed that spelling is weird for me now. I have never had a problem with it and now when it comes to longer more complex words I have to stop and really think about them. Thank goodness for spell check eh? Its not enough to make me stop taking it though. I am going to look up GAD after Im done writing this. Other than that, I think Im OK. I get thirsty more often and want more to drink. I also find that alcohol isnt as appealing. I could have a few drinks before but now I get super thirsty and dont feel great the next day. I know im not supposed to drink on meds like these but a glass of wine here and there wont kill me Im sure.
I love this message board and all the support it brings!! I cant thank you enough!
Molly
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