Posted by floatingbridge on August 8, 2011, at 9:23:57
In reply to Re: These anticonvulsants have something good » floatingbridge, posted by tepi on August 8, 2011, at 1:27:29
Tepi,
I have a lot of diagnoses, Social anxiety/phobia as well as PTSD. Also mood disorders of some sort. So the answer to your question is yes, I do have extreme anxiety, fear, even terrible thoughts like I do not deserve to be alive. This is different in my mind than being suicidal, because I do not wish myself any harm, only to feel better and to live.
At times, I know what joy is, appreciate beauty and pleasure. I have some good friends, but it is difficult.
Something I admire very much about you is that you are able to work. That was always difficult for me to sustain, despite having earned a degree.
I think there is much value in what Scott has posted, about sticking with a medicine and finding therapy that works for you, as difficult as that might be--finding a therapist that is.
Thanks for your kind words, Tepi. I wish I didn't understand fear, but I certainly do in my own way.
I dig a pony.
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