Posted by linkadge on December 5, 2019, at 16:06:17
In reply to Re: CBD and THC and My Experimentation...comments? » linkadge, posted by undopaminergic on December 4, 2019, at 8:32:06
>I'm very spiritual and have had many experiences, >including visiting a parallel reality. I was quite >materialistic before my psychosis in the end of >2009, after which I have evolved dramatically. When >I looked at my notes from before the psychosis, it >looked like they had been written by a whole other >person.
Interesting. I know these 'experiences' are typically seen as abnormal, but some modern research into psychedelics seems to suggest that having such an experience can lead to improved mental health for an extended period.
I'm not talking about extreme distortions (i.e. thinking you are Jesus or the like). For me it was an out of body experience where I saw myself externally (like a parent viewing their child). I realized that much of my pain was self imposed by unrealistic expectations and fabricated 'first-word' problems. I felt that I briefly connected to everything and everybody. After this experience there was a satisfaction with just being alive and the ability to experience the wonder of the universe even if I cannot fully understand it or control it.
I have since been able to 'let go' of things that I cannot change. That's not to say I am symptom free permanently. As mentioned in previous posts, I have had relapses of anxiety (more physical, however) and there might be a physical explanation.
Different strains of marijuana can produce very different effects. I actually don't like high THC strains as they just disconnect me without any of the psychological healing.
It's interesting however, whenever I have such experiences I know that I will feel better for a while (and I'm usually right). I've had a single 'trip' leave me in remission for weeks at a time. The best 'trips' are when the ego is completely shattered. I hate my ego. It is the source of so many of my problems.
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