Posted by Racer on November 26, 2005, at 12:10:54
In reply to racer did i scare you off, posted by overtheedge on November 26, 2005, at 4:51:09
I'm sitting in a dark room until I get over it -- a year or two, maybe?
I'm a bit more resilient than that, my dear. I appreciate the information, just going through that dark tunnel on the Clomid. It's like an emotional rollercoaster, starting great -- the first couple of weeks, I felt better than I had in years, just a nice sense of well-being. Then, by the time I got my period, well, I was NOT in that happy zone. I'm looking forward to starting the next cycle tomorrow.
It's funny -- I've now heard from about a dozen women who've taken Clomid, and only one has gotten pregnant on it. Sure makes me feel confident, huh?
And to make this fit this board, my problem may be related to my ED. So far, the bloodwork says I'm ovulating, but my temps chart says I'm not. There's no way to figure out when I might be ovulating, so far, which is scary. Especially since I'm way too old to be baby-making, really. If it doesn't happen soon, it ain't gonna.
Beyond everything else, my body image has gone to [expletive deleted] recently. My belly and boobs are enormous, and I can't stand living in this body. I've done better with eating -- even ate pasta! Very scary. But the emotional side is overwhelming.
I'm stuck between wanting to eat well, in hopes of conceiving -- and wanting nothing more than to get thin again. I cannot believe how strong that second part is. I'm told, over and over again, by my T and my N, that that's the ED talking. But it sure feels like me, you know?
How long have you been wrangling your ED? Did it affect your fertility? Is that why you were on the drugs? You were, I think, younger than I am when you had your babies, so keep that in mind.
OK. I'm babbling at this point. I know -- this is Psycho*BABBLE* but there is a limit, isn't there? lol
poster:Racer
thread:582315
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