Posted by DiamondDoggie on November 28, 2005, at 1:08:04
In reply to I am not pathetic, or disgusting .. but, posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 12:45:45
> (well, at least I am trying to tell myself that), but what I am doing is!!
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> I ate everything and anything that I could possibly lay my hands on this last weekend and half the time I was not hungry. Even worse, I knew all the triggers that were making me want to eat and that didn't make an ounce of difference.
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> I keep a food diary, for what it is worth. I just don't bother to write in when I do binge.
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> After a really healthy food day - I have just devoured, greedily, as if I have never eaten in my life, a whole bag of potato chips.
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> I tell myself it is wrong. I tell myself it isn't necessary. I tell myself I am not hungry. I tell myself to just do something else until the desire to binge is gone. I tell myself about all the fruit and fresh veg I have just bought. And no matter what I tell myself, I reach for the junk food and start stuffing my face.
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> I am not pathetic - I am not disgusting. But my behaviour is. Or am I just totally naive.
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> I'll just raise my glass of wine to my stomach. It seems to be quite happy resting on my ample thighs!
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> Please forgive my self pity - I have nowhere else to share it.
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> SabrinaI completely understand everything you've said--you know you shouldn't do it, you don't want to, you're not hungry, and yet the veggies sit there and rot while you have whatever else, you do it despite knowing it's bad for you, you don't write anything in the log, etc. Perhaps this knowledge that it's bad for you but you still do it just makes it suck and makes you feel bad all the more? Knowledge is power though, so as long as you are aware, at some point you will break out of the habit and cycle. I just understand what you're saying! Keep trying!
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