Posted by Emily Elizabeth on January 1, 2006, at 23:52:17
I was spending time with my family and my mom says to me, "If you really want to find a husband, you should lose 20lbs." I played it off like it was a joke, but it really hurt. I long to fall in love so much that it hurts. And to be told that the problem is that I am not attractive enough feels awful.
I also should add that 20 lbs would be a lot for me to lose. I'm sorta average size, but pretty curvy. There is no "health reason" for me to lose weight (sure, I could eat healthier, but that is a different issue). I don't know how much I weigh b/c I'm so sensitive about it that I never ever weigh myself. I suspect it is around 150 though. Come to think of it, my mom is saying that I should weigh what I weighed in 7th grade. Yeah, that is a reasonable goal.
She is really lucky that I don't have an ED. (Lots of depression, anxiety, and body image issues, but no ED). Seriosuly, what is wrong with her? She must know better than this.
I needed to vent to folks who would understand. Sigh. I see my therapist is less than 48 hrs. Thank goodness!
Best,
EE
poster:Emily Elizabeth
thread:594242
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