Posted by Deneb on February 23, 2006, at 17:28:04
I hate this so much. I'm supposed to be trying to lose weight, not gain weight. I keep eating too much of the wrong foods. My Mom keeps buying potato chips and cake and other junk food. I eat when I'm bored or procrastinating.
I hate making myself throw up. It's really disgusting to me. I keep screwing up my diet. I don't want to be fat. I must lose weight. I feel like getting some Xenical or something to lose weight. I don't know if a doctor will prescribe it since I'm technically not overweight.
Why do I eat when I'm not hungry? It just makes me feel bad afterwards. I just want to lose weight...how I wish I could be 95 pounds. I'm only 4'11" so 95 pounds would not be underweight for me.
I'm fat...I hate how I'm fat. I hate my fat sooo much. I just want to be thin. I hate my thick legs...they are unnatural.
I don't want to develop an eating disorder. I gave in today and threw up after I ate some cake. I just wanted to throw up more a few minutes ago, but I stopped myself somehow. I hate it...it's really gross to me. I need to stop stuffing my face.
Deneb
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