Posted by lost_and_delerious on May 21, 2006, at 18:44:40
ok here is my situation...I was anorexic from the ages of 12-15 and at that time my weight hovered between 85-90 pounds, throughout highschool I just started to eat lunch and a small dinner and maintained a weight of around 90-95 pounds. When I went off to university though I was never around a scale and I ate all the time never really knoing what I was doing just living to study and ate because everyone else was eating and it became a social thing, purging was never a thought in my head. wehn I came back from univeristy I weighed a somewhat disappointing 135pounds but I lived with it over the next 3 years I became depressed after my step father died of cancer and was put on several antidepressants and went up to 160 pounds last october I started to go on a really healthy diet to loose the weight and settled that 140 was a good weight but got to 135. this january 24 my mom died. at the time I weighed 135...depression has changed my eating habits. I now eat becuase I have to. Some day I go without eating because I've really forgotten or just haven't felt that food is interesting. I will eat if people are around me but also I don't know if I'm doing it becuase i'm scared that I'm losing weight I'm counting the calories that i eat. I now weigh between 119 and 121 depending on the day and I'm 5'4. it's still healthy, but I'm afraid it will go to far. sometimes I catch myself thinking well I'm 119 so I can be 115...and i know that sort of logic is wrong.
Is the anorexia coming back ?
poster:lost_and_delerious
thread:646672
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