Posted by ElaineM on June 27, 2006, at 12:03:47
In reply to What have I done to my body?, posted by Alita on June 25, 2006, at 14:26:43
Hi Alita, Waiting for test results can be beyond scary. I've had alot of trouble with chronic constipation myself. I've never had bulimia, but when I was sickest with anorexia my intestines pretty much shut down from lack of solid foods going through. Pretty embarassing stuff to talk about huh? I know a colonoscopy is not exactly the greatest procedure to go through, but it's better than not. Doctors need to know, before they can help. (not that that makes going through it any easier)
As far as help goes, I was prescribed an osmotic laxative (which isn't as dangerous as stimulant ones), and various other pills. And when I was in treatment, most of us (A and B) were on Motilium (which helps with motility and reflux). With the constipation, my docs always said that one of the best things you can do to get your intestinal tract moving properly is to make sure that you have regular-portion food intakes at regular intervals - it is hard for the body to restore while still being symptomatic. (easier said than done, I know) It's good that you started seeing a doc (gastroenterologist?)
I think you're pretty brave continuing to go through with all your tests, even though the anxiety is brutal. Try to be kinder to yourself. It's hard to not have that what-did-I-do? feeling with ED's. I'm trying to get myself to believe that, in developing my ED, my mind was doing the best it could, at the time, to find a way to cope. I was trying to save myself and make it through any way how. Unfortunately, certain ways of coping are dangerous. I don't believe that finding it hard to recover is a sign of any unintelligence on your part (or any of ours). Actually, I think the fact that your trying to take care of yourself now is a sign of intelligence. And I guess that's where support groups and therapy comes in. I do think it's a good idea to find others to talk with who know what it's like.
You aren't alone :) Sometimes ED's feel like such a prison that it's easy to forget that.
courage, Elaine
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