Posted by Lindenblüte on October 15, 2006, at 22:30:56
In reply to Re: Gloves » Jost, posted by Lindenblüte on October 7, 2006, at 23:55:20
1. Okay- first of all. no cutting that's good news. Cutting usually happens when I feel un-real. not like myself. "depersonalization"
2. Have definitely found that klonopin reduces the urge to pick. this morning I picked my poor earlobe scab wide open, and realized that I hadn't had my klonopin yet. hmm.
3. Have found that wearing cotton gloves at night with hand cream makes my cuticles plump and smooth and shiny and healthy pink. This removes a trigger- the dreaded hangnail/flakey bit
4. Have found that wearing gloves during potentially triggering tasks- like talking on the phone, watching TV/movie/ typing/ working/ reading... heck- LIFE!@#$$!@#$@ greatly reduces not only the cuticle destruction but ALSO the ability to use my fingernails to pick and scratch.
5. Have developed a strategy for times when I know I want to pick all my facial blemishes. I keep the lights off in the bathroom and try and get in, wash my face, brush teeth, smear on lotion, and get out as fast as possible.
6. Waxing- tonight I waxed my eyebrow region. Wow- this was quite lovely. I think I could make a habit of this, except that it's gloppy and messy! So, next time I get in the urge, maybe I'll pop my waxing stuff in the microwave, and wax my upper lip or between my eyebrows or something.
7. Ice cubes- I haven't tried this out yet, but supposedly using an ice cube to self "injure" is a great way of causing physical pain without damage. Has any one tried this yet?
8. Figured out my biggest trigger- talking on my mom on the phone. she called me today. she dared ask me how my depression was going. (um, fine). In retaliation, I told her that she should consider counselling for herself and for dad, and then systematically destroyed each and every one of her lame excuses. Whatever. by the end of our pleasant chat, my 10 beautiful nails and cuticles were 70% affected with 4 bleeders. Damn. Well, at least now I know to grab my gloves (my boxing gloves?) whenever my mom calls me.
Anybody else working on this stuff?
-Li
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