Posted by littleone on October 17, 2006, at 21:24:05
I am going to try a ten. This is ten reasons I'm glad I'm alive. Ten things I like about my life. For a long time I had been flat out coming up with one. So it feels like such a big step forward to even be able to attempt this. Still not sure I'll make it to ten.
1. I love birds. I love birding. They help me on such a deep level. I'm glad I'm a morning person so I can enjoy them more.
2. Hiking has been my saving grace. It's a wonderful addition to my life. It does come with some problems, but I think overall it has been very helpful for me.
3. I really enjoy photography. It helps all or most of my parts. The adult is keen to improve my composition and use of lighting and colour. My younger parts are keen to take lots of photos of tiny facinating things to show my T. I have a hopeless memory, so my photography has helped me hold on to some history/memories.
4. My T is wonderful. I'm so glad I found him. I'm so glad I stayed with him. He has helped me grow so much. I think I need to do a separate ten re my T.
5. My kitty loves me and I love her. She is so sweet.
6. Cottage gardens are so beautiful. I'm glad I have the chance to see more of them and the chance to improve mine. I would like to find the drive to fulfill my garden dreams.
7. I love the fact that I can create beautiful stitcheries (embroidery and cross stitch). I wish I could find my passion for it again. It would be nice to join a stitching group and learn more.
8. really struggling now.
Okay 8. I have a real life safe place I can visit whenever I like and can stay there sometimes ($ and time permitting). I love having it in my life. It soothes me so much. I feel so lucky to have a real life safe place. Don't think I've ever had one before. It is such a special thing to have.
9. The fact that I am still around demonstrates how much courage and determination and persistence and endurance I have. I think these are wonderful qualities to have and I'm glad they are in me.
10. I'm glad that I've had the chance to start to see what I'm really like. That (maybe) I am a good person worthy of good things. That underneath everything I am strong and smart and am probably someone that I could like. A lot. I think I really respect me and could learn to be more compassionate. I'm glad I've gotten the chance to start to like me. And to believe that maybe one day I really will feel comfortable in the world. And that the world will be glad to have me, but that won't really be a big deal to me, because *I* will be glad to have me.
Okay, I feel like crying now. That last one was a doozy for me.
I'm glad I made my ten. And I would probably even have another couple to add it I really put my mind to it. I need to keep this somewhere safe. Add it to my comfort book. It deserves a home there.
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