Posted by bronte19 on August 23, 2004, at 12:24:35
In reply to Re: Introducing myself » bronte19, posted by partlycloudy on August 22, 2004, at 8:51:40
PC, Thanks for writing back. I've read a lot of your posts and almost feel like I already know you and several others on the boards. I know what you mean about family history. Both my younger sister and my younger brother were treated for anorexia in their teens. My brother (fortunately?) was the first of all of us to exhibit symptoms that could not be ignored. Between the three of us, we currently have unipolar and bipolar depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic attacks. Our mother thinks medications are for weak people; however, she was treated with psychotherapy for borderline personality while I was very young and still drinks an awful lot of wine! I'm glad we are all living states apart. I also have a half-brother (7 years old), a cousin on each side of my family, and a father with mood disorders. I guess I was bound to have something. I'm 28 and this is the first time I sought out being treated with medication.
Unfortunately, although my family has so much mental illness in it, we hardly talk about our feelings because everyone is so spread out across the US. We usually end up talking about babies and jobs and the weather, I'm afraid, all wrapped up in our own issues.
I go to my pdoc next Tuesday. I hate how long Lamictal must be titrated up to a therapeutic dose; I want to feel better faster! I've been miserable to live with. I rearranged my bookshelves until well past midnight. Luckily, my son has been spending a lot of time with his dad (not my husband), so he hasn't seen me like this very much lately. My husband just tries to get out of the line of fire. I feel guilty for making everyone avoid me when I'm like this.
I don't know how I'm going to hold everything together this semester: I'm a 3rd year Ph.D. student, a graduate research assistant, and an adjunct college instructor of English. Today's the first day, and I'm not off to a good start with little sleep. :(
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