Posted by Jen2 on January 23, 2005, at 20:10:37
In reply to Re: About racing thoughts, posted by manicmomto3 on January 19, 2005, at 23:50:52
Hi,
When I had my "episode" -- two weeks of living nightmare hell in Nov/Dec of last year that started with what felt like a popping in my head due to a variety of stress-related factors -- I had what I would consider "racing thoughts". It was like my mind was let loose of any of its boundaries or controls and my thoughts just came constantly and uncontrollably. I was overanalyzing everything, constantly second-guessing myself and trying to determine if people were thinking ill of me. I became quite paranoid. I thought that everybody I knew (even just acquaintances) might know my innermost secrets and that they were all plotting to catch me in the midst of doing the wrong thing. I still have those thoughts sometimes.
The worst was at night. I hadn't had a good night's sleep until last night. The Effexor is finally taking care of that. At night I would have constant long threads of anxiety-based thoughts that I couldn't control and couldn't make go away. I wouldn't sleep more than a couple of hours.
The mania was so bad, my heart was pounding for days and days on end - and it was accompanied by the worst anxiety and depression and I just felt like I was going to die.
I haven't been diagnosed bipolar or ADHD. In fact, I haven't been diagnosed at all. But I'm on the meds and things are better now (until such time as I have to go off, and then I'll have to suffer the withdrawal).
Jen
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