Posted by Rose2 on July 28, 2005, at 21:48:08
Good evening,
Happened to stumble upon this site for the very first time.......scrolling thru and read something from Barbara that struck me.
Barbara, if you're still out there, I would really like to hear more about your earlier experiences. The first post I read was yours from July 17 2003, and in a return message to Max you mentioned your experiences when in a semi-delusional state....you talk of precognitions and an insane God. I, too, suffered most of my life haunted by the (same?) overwhelming feelings of an "evilness". Despite my current diagnosis of bipolar 2, I have been unable to explain the years of apocolyptic dreams and sensations of "darkness".
Effexor and Risperdal have eased the living hell, but I am still compelled to understand these "visions". I feel like so many of my problems dawned from this mental and emotional chaos. I have come to understand many of the complexities of depression etc. but, to this day, have never heard anyone else describe this "state" like you.
Any thoughts?
Rose
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