Posted by ButterflyHigh on September 20, 2005, at 0:28:49
Hi, I have BPD, anxiety disorder, and a tad of social anxiety disorder. I recently detoxed off of Vicodin and Xanax and am in recovery, staying clean. I am currently under way in working on where my anger comes from. Anger sometimes at the world, but more at myself for not being the type of person I "should" be -failures, bridges burned, and relationships lost - great ones at that. Old tapes and beliefs I was taught I want to discard. I am a kind, loving, outgoing person, however, I push people away and am afraid of intimacy - wasn't always like this, I want to change. I have been on pretty much every psychiatric medication since 1995, only to come to the realization that the Lord is my Rock and that medications do not help me live life on life's terms. I do not need medication to survive, as I do still take Seroquel and Ativan currently. I just need a little bit of a push to grow up finally. I look forward to meeting people and offering support as I seek it out as well.
Thank you
poster:ButterflyHigh
thread:557178
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