Posted by arina on November 30, 2005, at 1:42:34
Hi im sort of new here except that I went straight into the main psycho-babble,man I never realized this page was here for newbies,thats typical,im allways way too far ahead of myself.Hi,Arinas my name,I live in new zealand,and this is a great website,with information,help and advice.I had a brother who was autistic and has been missing 15 years(assumed drowned.I myself had problems and they were severe,which started when I waS 13 (severly withdrawn,depressed,fearfull and alienated.) That was followed by a great confident high full of confidence and wellbeing and so it continued(it took about 20 years of suffering in blind confusion before I finally saw I had the obvious symptoms of bipolar).I met my partner way back 16 years ago and we became young parents unsupported and all alone it was a struggle and he had severe alcahol and drug issues but he attended rehab and remained sober 6 years.So proud of him (his childhood was so traumatic in every way imaginable) All went so well,his own house and business,but because the grass allways appears greener on the other side,we sold the house(but couldnt rebuy because of NZ income criteria crap),then he gave up on his business and then we seperated.I was obviously on a bi high,didnt feel like going back to him straight away,despite his constant crying and desperateness.He was majorly depressed but at the time I didnt realize the seriousness of major severe depression,he eventually had a complete breakdown,overdosed ect,ended up in a psych ward,overmedicated,and hes never been quite the same since.I have many regrets,OK if we could rewind or fastforward our lives and rewrite it.I still dont know qiute what is wrong with him and am working on it)So I finally found out I have bipolar,which had over the years changed and is now a mixed type(up and down at the same time) which is kind of a strange way to be.We have 5 children aged 8 mounths ,3,10,13 and 15 (4 boys 1 girl), and im going through a major crisis right now because im pregnant again and dont know what to do.(2 weeks ) .Hope I havent rambled .I also talk too much and my mum went overseas for 2 years,2 weeks ago so Im really missing chatting to her.
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