Posted by alanjacobs on October 30, 2006, at 9:07:50
In reply to Re: Hello, Please Read It . I could use some feedb, posted by Jost on October 29, 2006, at 22:38:55
Thanks for the reply.
I went to a counselor at my university originally. I saw him twice a week for three weeks. After three weeks he told me he was going away for three weeks and I would be seeing someone new. I said "well if you are going away for three weeks, and I will be seeing a new person for three weeks, than wont he (the new or replacement councilor) be at the same point you and I let off when you return. He said, yes it’s not the best situation but it’s the only solution we have to offer and he assured me that the new councilor would be there for the long haul. I agreed. I met with the new and as I found out in-training therapist. He was ok; we talked for three weeks and then what happened? He informed me he was leaving for two months and I could meet with someone else there. So now 6 weeks past I had made zero movement on my issues. I told him this was insane and wrong, he told me I was being argumentative, needless to say I just stopped going to them. They had, during the 6 weeks forwarded me to a Psychiatrist for medication. I relayed to him what was going on when we first met a few weeks later and he agreed it was wrong. He assured me I would be in better hands. I went to him once a month. He said next time we met he would have a therapist for me to meet. A month later, no therapist. A month later after prescribing me lamictal and celexa no therapist. A month later he offered me a therapist for our next meeting. I was disheartened to say the least but agreed. Next meeting. He had left and not even bothered to let me know. I was meeting with a new psychiatrist who had no idea what was going on with me, when we met for the firs time she was reading my chart for the first time. She game me a therapist name in her office I made an appointment that day, but after all this I sunk very low and slept for a week, including right through my appointment. I met with her for three months, more of the same, she left too, to continue her rotation or so I was told. I finally got a therapist through them after complaining to the department head. Not much help. This is where the "just do it" attitude comes in. Not sure if these people work for Nike or something.
But I had a lot of anxiety about talking to professors and going to classes because I felt like such a failure. These were issues I had been having for a long time, fear of failure and such. He relayed I just need to force myself and all that jazz. I kind of felt like "no sh*t, I need to force myself" but why cant I? So that’s where I am a year later, barely leaving the house and having all the issues from my last post. It sucks.
I emailed a local therapist I found online. She has a good site and she contacted me back this morning. I m someone interested as she has her own private practice and I would hope she can refer me to someone for meds that she works with to keep a good and closed loop of help.
Thanks for your reply Jost. You made some good pints that I have made to myself but you speak in a language that’s a bit more "real" than, "chin up" and all that.
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