Posted by Adara on December 27, 2008, at 4:13:47
I just recently sent out a post introducing myself with a hello. After reading a post from Hisgrace I felt so much empathy that I felt the urge to share what was going on with me. This is to encourage anyone who is going through physical or mental illness that you are not alone.
I am not bipolar or suffer from many different anxieties, but I do know about depression because it is one of the things that I suffer from. I do believe however that my depression is linked to my physical state of illnesses. Even so, depression still works the same way regardless to the underlying cause. I am taking cymbalta for it.
I also suffer from an abnormal pain condition which is INTENSE PAIN in lower abdomen due to scar tissue, and lower back pain do to degenerative arthritis along with multiple scoliosis which is several curves of the back bone. Xrays has revealed that deterioration of the back bone in the lumbar (lower) region has already taken place.
I am in pain most of the time for which I am on very strong medications, oxycontin and percocet. Sometimes Ultram which is milder. I also have pain block procdures done every six to twelve weeks to try and control the pain.
I am sick most of the time from being in such a painful state. I have not yet recovered from surgery I had in October 2007 which was a spinal cord stimulator implant in order to control pain with a neuro stimulator that has been permanently placed inside of my body.
It's awful not to be able to sleep well at night or not to sleep at all because of obstructive sleep apnea which is what I have. During sleep I stop breathing and it wakes me up. It may not sound like much, but when I sleep I don't really sleep. I wake up twenty, thirty, mayble forty times a night never able to go into rem sleep (deep sleep) the one that matters. The one that rest and repairs the body of wear and tear put on it from the previous day. It's as if I never went to bed and it leaves me feeling very tired and exhausted. Sometimes I can sleep all of the next day, but it does not help very much. Sleep apnea can have some very serious affects on the body such as high blood pressure (which I also have along with deteriorating conary artery disease), heart attack, stroke, etc.
To those of you who are afraid, feel all alone, tire of being tire, ready to give up, or what ever feelings you are having that's keeping a cloud of gloom over your head, just know that you are not alone. There are so many other people that feel as you do, because they are going through some of what you are going through. Let's be encouraged and work through this site with the intent that it is going to help us for the better. God bless you.
poster:Adara
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