Posted by Dinah on August 15, 2002, at 12:06:31
In reply to Re: Self hypnosis, meditation, dissociation » Dinah, posted by judy1 on August 15, 2002, at 11:48:41
It does Judy, and it's sort of what I had thought. I think I do it both consciously and as an unconscious defense mechanism. And I've been trying to keep better track of which is which. Because sometimes when I now think I'm self-hypnotizing, I didn't realize before that I was doing it as deliberately as I was. (If that makes any sense at all.)
I've been playing around with it a bit, and trying to gain more control over the process. I have found that I can put myself into a trance or dissociative state to calm myself down and make myself sleep (as an alternative to cutting). And I have also found I can block thoughts and forget about things on purpose. My husband and I were in a disagreement this morning and he said something that I found hurtful. As I was in the process of replying, I consciously tried blocking what he had said and what I was about to say. It worked enormously well. I stopped mid-sentence and I can't recall now what the discussion was about or what stupid thing I was about to say. But I do remember that the incident occurred.
Maybe what I'm trying to do is to bring the whole process further under my control. Because dissociation seems like a useful skill that gotten away from me right now. And I'd like it to just be more of a useful skill, like self hypnosis. And maybe if I can control when I do it on purpose, I can also control not doing it automatically. Hmmm. I'm not sure what on earth I'm saying. But it *seems* like a good idea.
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