Posted by mair on March 10, 2003, at 7:30:49
In reply to Just spent a week in the hospital, posted by LibbyH on March 9, 2003, at 23:32:37
Libby
I'm sorry to hear you so depressed about things although I am pleased to hear that you have at least been safe. You started that "half-baked plans" thread and then disappeared. I've been concerned.
Going into a hospital is bad enough - emerging to the feeling that nothing has changed for the better is probably worse. But although I know this sounds so much easier said than done, you need to find some way to feel more in control of your illness and less victimized by it. Maybe that means going on disability for awhile so you can concentrate on getting healthier. I can well relate to the situation you described before where everyone thinks you're fine because you put up such a great front. All well and good, but it's positively exhausting to keep that going - too much energy gets directed to the "front" and there is not enough left to direct to healing. And it's pretty stressful to try to keep all that going.
Please consider devoting yourself to a longer range recovery plan that does not just entail you just soldiering along while you're dying inside.
Mair
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