Posted by Adia on August 26, 2003, at 23:29:12
In reply to surviving therapist vacations, posted by underthecs on August 24, 2003, at 14:11:11
Hi..
I'm pretty new here and I feel a bit shy to post, but I read your post and I struggle with the same and it hurts soooooooo much.
I have huge abandonment issues and when my T leaves I just don't know how to feel her close or how to feel she is not leaving me and she will be back and I won't lose the safety I have with her. I get scared that I will lose what I have accomplished with her. She leaves sometimes for 15 days and in the summer she leaves for a month and a half!!!
What I do, is to talk with her, before she leaves...and share my feelings and fears with her...and sometimes I ask her..if i am brave to risk rejection..if she can help me feel her close somehow during her time away..like telling me a book she has liked...or a movie..that way, if i can read something she has truly liked then I feel protected in a way..or close to her. She has also shared her favourite music, and so I listen to that and it helps in my heart to feel her close..or I write to her, or send her a card...
I try not to feel and just get through the days...it's not easy..:-( I've been taking meds for a year now and if i am really having a hard time or don't know how to stop crying I call my psychiatrist...she helps me survive till my T is back..
Mostly I try to find ways to feel connected to her...and then I try to get through the days without feeling much..
I am sending you all my support,I know how hard and painful it is..
Adia.
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