Posted by fallsfall on September 29, 2003, at 8:18:50
In reply to Total meltdown from last session, posted by Tabitha on September 29, 2003, at 2:37:15
Tabitha,
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. It sounds very painful!
This sounds really similar to what I was feeling with my first therapist. I now think that it was transference, because I was able to get the same feeling with my new therapist. In my case, I feel like they are mad or disappointed in me. Then I try to frantically "fix" whatever it is that I think I did. The intensity of the emotions is incredibly high. Maybe what I learned from my agony can help you.
Try to be really clear with your therapist about what you are feeling, and what it means to you. Don't avoid it and hope it will go away (it won't). Be as open as you can, and describe it as precisely as you can. Hopefully the two of you can talk about it and see what issues from your past are coming up because of this (jealosy? favoritism?).
Depending on your therapist's orientation (CBT, Psychodynamic, Eclectic etc) she may have different reactions. If she doesn't seem to be able or willing to deal with this issue for you, then I would recommend that you ask for a consultation with someone else to get through this. (My new therapist is Psychodynamic and he is more "into" transference than my old therapist was)
I believe that what you are experiencing is not unusual, and it can be very helpful in allowing you to make progress with your therapy.
Let us know how it goes. (((Tabitha)))
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