Posted by fallsfall on October 7, 2003, at 12:53:09
In reply to Re: I wouldn't (couldn't) tell him » fallsfall, posted by Adia on October 7, 2003, at 11:56:27
Thank you for your support.
I have called him, and I'm waiting for him to call me back. The pain anticipating abaondonment is more than I can deal with. Whether or not I searched on him is a trivial detail at this point. Even why I was needy is trivial.
I know that what I did isn't bad. But, in essence, my last therapist threw me out for exactly that. I'm trying to believe that she is the exception, but I guess I won't know until I find out how he reacts.
I may try writing - it often helps me sort things out. I'm just afraid that I would simply obsess "He's going to throw me out, he's going to throw me out." That wouldn't be very theraputic.
Trying to breathe deeply and relax...
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