Posted by DaisyM on December 4, 2003, at 18:02:01
In reply to Re: I wish I was an artist » shar, posted by Dinah on December 4, 2003, at 17:33:42
Oh Dinah...can you hear me sigh from here?
Isn't it amazing how the words spoken by someone trying to help can actually make us feel so much worse? I totally get the "unsafe" and "safe" difference. It reminds me of the discussion I recently had with my Therapist about trust. I tried to explain that it wasn't that I didn't trust HIM, I just didn't trust trusting. Period. He said it must be something really primal in me, but I'm not sure he understood completely.
I think you have to allow for the fact that just because you KNOW this might be a move in the right direction, doesn't mean you FEEL good about it. I'm sure he didn't mean what he said as a commentary on your day to day trials or to trivialize what you are going through. It was one of those "challenges."
Change is really hard, even self-imposed and self-selected. Self-care will be really important for you right now. I wouldn't worry about him being surprised that this is hard for you -- he probably just assumed since you said you were ready, you were totally, well, ready. (hmmm, that didn't come out quite right!)
I'm thinking about you. My Therapist has the flu so I don't *have* to go now until Monday. I'm trying to decide how I feel about that.
-D
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