Posted by Kalamatianos on December 11, 2003, at 15:02:21
My grumbling and obligatory thinking can cloud and block my vision from seeing the truth about myself. I accept that my memories acquired in a delusional or dissociated state will be a mixture of real and imagined. I have witnessed part of what I have perceived, my delusions filled in some, and the rest I have actually filled in with the induction of imaginary (made up) facts and opinions.
Does this make me a liar? No. It doesn’t change who I am. I must accept, though, that I have acted badly, and must make amends. I have spent a lot of time cleaning up after myself. Not as much recently.
Bobby E, a 12 step speaker on codependency, broached this to us at the Northern California Codependency Convention in 1988. I then discovered I was “enough” to handle tomorrow better than I handled yesterday. All my life I had been confused and reluctant to accept that I've always been "enough". I’m all I’ve got and that ain’t bad.
Sometimes the quest for knowing "why" serves as a distraction for my undisciplined impulsive mind. My gut has told me that I have the right to know, and that I won't be "whole" until I do know. I became whole when I found that I was "enough". I can now speak to myself in my mirror, and hear only one voice, mine
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