Posted by zenhussy on December 28, 2003, at 13:24:02
In reply to Re: huzza fuzza? med stupid and prickly mood » zenhussy, posted by Dinah on December 25, 2003, at 12:46:02
>I wonder if this is the same problem I perceive with Tabitha's group. That when a therapist runs both group and individual sessions with group members, that there is just an inherent conflict of interest. And that we're so used to therapist's putting the needs of the client first, but here they have two clients, the individual and the group as a whole, and are balancing those needs. Sometimes better than others.
Hmmm. Since not everyone in the group does individual therapy with our group therapist I know my T isn't against working with others. In fact a requirement of group is that one is in individual therapy outside of the group.
The more I think (ha! thinking on lamictal just doesn't seem to be possible right now...I feel as dense as a doorknob) about this the more I'm realizing my resistance could be hampering me. I don't think I could find a group more suited to my idea of what I think would help me. I guess due to the very reasons I'm in this group I want control and fight fiercely when I perceive loss of control. Or loss of MY control I should say.
My my it certainly is revealing what we type out in these posts. I have this entire thread printed out and have made notes from it to more clearly express myself and my concerns to my therapist. This week will be interesting. I guess I'll have some sort of update as to the stay/go decision by early '04. However at this particular moment I'm leaning on staying.
Yo yo up and down. That's half of the reason I'm flipping about this in the first place. I'm so up and down about it. Maybe the nature of the work I'm doing this round is contributing to my 'run like the wind' flight urge. And maybe we need oxygen to breathe. Ugh. I just hate when I become aware of the obvious to others. Guess that is why I'm in therapy, eh?
>Also maybe she has a bit too much emotional/professional investment in the group and the group placements?I've considered that. In looking back through my journal from group over the past fourteen months I've worked with a total of eleven other women during that time. The group is usually five to seven women at a time. Has gone as low as four. In reviewing my journal and looking at notes I had made about other women and what they were going through and the therpist's words to them I just don't see or sense that.
Thank you for your questions. This is helping me think through this situation and consider angles I might not have before. Or perhaps making me consider more throughly the things I don't want to think about. <--That's the really important one there.
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