Posted by DaisyM on January 23, 2004, at 13:59:47
In reply to Re: Daisy, sweet, when is your next appointment? » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on January 23, 2004, at 7:48:28
Tell me this is worth it...sometimes I wonder. Late last night I began to think that I should stop and figure out how to go back in time, where there was this vague unhappiness and nagging thoughts of you'll never make it through...but not this overwhelming pain.
At the beginning, I would complain about all these "ghosts", feelings of sadness that would just show up with no real reason. But they could be contained, or ignored. I remember my Therapist saying, "just try to sit with your feelings, tolerate them." Now that seems easy...
He tells me that just because we've "named" the issues or disturbances doesn't make them magically better. Curitive identification and "ah-ha" moments are mostly for TV movies.
I know part of what I'm doing is mourning, for who I was, for dreams I'm letting go of. And I know it takes time. But does it have to take THIS much time?!
I need wise words and more chocolate.
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