Posted by Medusa on January 24, 2004, at 9:58:42
In reply to Quitting School, posted by Elle2021 on January 23, 2004, at 1:16:32
Elle, could it be that there's a family reason for you to be feeling so lousy when you're in school?
This was the case with me. Although both parents attended college, they "dropped out" of their own family's material/professional/academic/success systems before I was born. I "rebelled" by attending a much higher level college than either of my parents did. In public, they were very proud of me (my "success" justified a lot of their bizarre approaches to child-rearing, home-schooling etc) but when it was just me around, they made it clear that I was NOT acceptable.
I got through school, somehow, partly with the carrot of knowing I couldn't kill myself as long as I was in school or they'd think I hadn't been able to handle the academic load (the trouble was NOT school). Eventually I figured out that they'd +never+ look at themselves as an explanation if I topped myself.
Not sure if this has anything at all to do with your situation ... if you think it might, and you want help finding a therapist in your area who specialises in this kind of stuff, Dinah has my e-mail address.
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