Posted by antigua on March 6, 2004, at 22:56:03
In reply to Re: Question for everyone -Trigger warning, posted by KindGirl on March 6, 2004, at 22:42:38
You didn't cause me pain, just reminded me of the truth. I tend to desensitize or trivialize the truth of the things that happened to me. They're not that important in the long run, but then when I hear things that happen to other people I can see it so much more clearly, that it did happen, it was wrong, and it has had a profound effect.
I still don't really feel. The funny thing is that growing up I always thought I was the most emotional person in the world. Well, I guess I was emotional, but I hid behind the emotions and didn't feel. Does that even make any sense? This week for the first time, and just for a few minutes or so, I recognized the "pain" I experienced and how I covered it up w/shame. Pain is synonomous with feeling and I truly believe that if I reach the anger I will not be able to control it. I have never felt safe enough to let it out--I can't ever imagine feeling that safe.
antigua
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