Posted by 64Bowtie on April 9, 2004, at 3:57:22
In reply to I shouldn't have cancelled therapy yesterday, posted by Dinah on April 7, 2004, at 10:08:15
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> But at night the goblins of anxiety and depression come to toy with my mind and dance across my brain.
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> Therapy seems to protect me from them, darned if I know how.
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<<<(((Dinah))), ya'know I love ya' Darlin', so anything I say is from my heart and brain; the best anyone can do.Like it or not, "...toy with my mind and dance across my brain" is still a habit you have. Linus from the "Peanuts" comics carries his little blue blanket and has his thumb in his mouth. Everyone can relate to that as a habit. He is also a young child and won't do it forever. Someday that blanket will get in his way and he will discard it.
Adults find excuses to lock themselves into distructive, illtimed, unhealthy habits. I have no label for your "demons" other than what you share here. I'll let you call 'em what you want to call 'em. What I want to point out is that they are voluntary on your part. They serve some odd purpose for you, but we worry about you when you can't manage.
Time and timing is most important. Discipline is a time-honoring endeavor. Prioritize your time with the "demons" included. If tasks are higher priority, make that decision. If playing with the "demons" is more important, make that decision.
Remember, denial locks you (by blinding you to what's true) into patterns (habits), and indecision hides the key to that door. Decide to play or not play with your "demons" and amazingly they will stop "blackmailing" you!
Take care. I only want the best for y'alls...
Rod
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