Posted by cubic_me on July 16, 2004, at 10:52:19
In reply to Re: hey B2c » cubic_me, posted by B2chica on July 16, 2004, at 9:35:48
It's just kinda come over me how good it feels to be back here. Like I've come home again.
Thanks for the congrats on the three weeks, it was more out of neccessity than willpower. I really really do want to cut, but now I've stopped this long it seems such a big step to go back again.
> I'm kinda disappointed that i can't ware any flipflops or anything cuz my ankle is Terribly scarred. so i have to do the long sock thing. but i guess that's the trade off huh?
I guess it is. But it's not like we want to feel like we have to cut our bodies up, we don't want the scars and the difficult questions. I know that life isn't fair, but when it gets to summer, it gets even more unfair for us. For a while last winter I look to wearing over the knee stripey socks under my jeans so that even if the legs slipped up, no-one would see the cuts. Now I tend to cut in places that are easier to hide.
Mega well done on how long you've gone without cutting, that's fantastic. I know you've been subsituting it sometimes with other things, but as long as you can keep it under some form of contol then that's got to be good. Keep me updated on how you are going, maybe we can try to get through this together?
> i Finally told my t something that happened to me when i was 16. it was Very difficult but my body gave me no choice, it was making me physically sick it was so close to the surface. but i'm glad i did. however, i have many more...but that's another day right?
It sounds like a great first step, however hard it is. It sounds like it's something that had to come out and be processed sometime, and whenever that time was, it was always going to be hard. I'm with you all the way. If you ever want to talk in private, my email is feelingfaded at hotmail dot co dot uk
hugs for (((((((((b2c))))))))))
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