Posted by gardenergirl on July 25, 2004, at 15:17:19
In reply to Re: those termination blues » Raindancer, posted by bell_75 on July 25, 2004, at 7:29:47
Bell,
I'm glad posting here helps, and in reading your last post, I thought, yeah, she should talk to her T about that! Good job, girl!I have some similar experiences. I cry so much, and I know that vulnerable, naked feeling, even after being in therapy for one year. I still wonder if he doesn't get impatient about it, or is disgusted about it. But early on when I said I was embarrassed about crying, he said, "anytime you enter a room with this many boxes of Kleenex, you can tell it's okay to cry." That made me laugh and he still says it occasionally. Every once in awhile I have a session or three in a row when I don't cry a lot. That feels like such a relief. But then that danged well fills up again, and overflows....
We are nowhere near terminating, but at times when we have talked about the concept, I find my self tearing up again. Almost automatically. I think it's just because his office and the hour with him is such a safe place to just be...as I like to say, warts and all. And it's okay. Of course that would be hard to leave. Frankly, when I am feeling my most vulnerable, I get more tearful just walking out the door, even when I know I will be back next week. Yuck!
Oh, and I sometimes where my eyeglasses instead of my contacts. It is amazing how well he "disappears" when I have to take them off to wipe my eyes! :)
Take care, dear.
gg
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