Posted by Racer on October 2, 2004, at 9:37:11
In reply to Phone Policies » Racer, posted by Daisym on October 1, 2004, at 21:38:11
In my case, there's a bit more to the whole thing than that. With the agency where I saw Dr EyeCandy, their reaction to me calling with a problem was such that I did my best to stop calling. I'm still having trouble calling when there's a problem, even though I'm dealing with a different set of treatment providers.
I think that's largely why SparklingBright asks me to check in every weekend. I think that, while it might really have something to do with making sure I'm "OK" between sessions, it's also her way to try to 'retrain' me that it's OK to pick up the telephone and call.
Just to make it all confusing, now that I have some evidence that it's OK to call, I don't feel nearly the same need to call. Of course, there's another thing, too: now, with this treatment team, it feels as if they're working *with* me, for *my* benefit, rather than trying to push me into a box and slam the lid on me. That difference, alone, is enough to reduce my anxiety, and reduce my need to call for support. With Dr EyeCandy's agency, I felt trapped -- as if they had forced me into a coffin and nailed the lid down on me, despite my telling them that I wasn't dead. They just kept telling me I was wrong, and forcing me into that box.
And then, of course, reprimanding me for trying to get out of that coffin, since they kept telling me that I was dead and just wouldn't face up to it.
So, that's got a lot to do with me and picking up the telephone...
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